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It's been quite a disastrous day.

First i went down to cox fer the juniors after a long time been away from dragonboating. Then i gotta realise that the currents today were exceptionally strong.

It really reminded me of the days where Reu was ard and he would somehow go out there and face the danger. Face his fears and emerge out as a brave warrior that had conquered his fear. Unlike him, i was a bit coward.

I went out there, did my best, at alas my worst fear came true. The last race, which i don understand how they had made it to the Tai Finals, i crashed and cause the DQ. The opponent boat had already eaten to my lane before the race even started, to avoid i sorta overturned the boat and ate to the first lane, before cutting back to my lane like some Initial D movie.

What made things worse was the stupid officials had to criticise me. The feelings really sucks. I agree i shopuld get a coxing cert. and part of the incident was my fault. I am a no experience coxer. I learnt my coxing from the Nteam and SAFSA mates, Ah Hee and my brilliant frens, Reu and Chee. I practised it every trg and every opportunity. I even trained other teams and u claim i am of no standards. Fucking officals have no brains at all. If it wasn't for the exams, i would still be training hard in nteam and SAFSA or Mountbatten.

Sometimes it sucks, but I always believe that what goes around comes around. Gotta be the change that you want to see in people, even if it sucks. I think I'll just sleep.

Sales are still going on. I still need my boxes from Zara and maybe could grab some stuff for topman. Sianx. I am suppose to save money and get my haircut nxt wk.

I need a miracle.