Time?

Time heals all wounds. Does it? I am not sure about this after Sunday. It's been exactly a year, since the dragonboat incident happened. After the memorial service, it made me really think a lot.

It feels as thought all these has never happened. I feel as thought i hv just met Reuben in the gym and even trained with him. He has always been a source of motivation. A tall and well built guy, definitely threatening, esp if u r new to the gym. But after knowing him, u will realise he is like a gentle giant. He was someone who has dreams and really inspiring. I would remember him, motivating me each time after trg, in various ways to make sure i push hard in trg and not neglect my studies. He was also very protective, being new and young to the sport. He always tell me not to give up and train hard like a 'ninja'(His fav phrase, probably his obsession with his ps3 games). Thought a year has passed, the service made me realise that it is so difficult to let go, all the brilliant hair cuts he has given, the motivating speeches and his smile that is in every pic. These are memories that will never be forgotten.

As the saying goes, time heals all wounds, does it? Or does it make it hurts more?

It's over?!?

At last, the most expected moment is almost here. The A's are ending and freedom is just a step away. There are so many plans that i hv, yet so many things i worry. To make things even spicier, i am enlisting on Jan 7. Haha. Wad short time i hv left.

A's was not as perfect as expected, did made a few fumbles here and there. What's done is done, just move on. Just hope that everything is gonna be fine. Found the inner spirit in me and i believe it is time i need to do a lot of stuff after A's.

I really wish i hv the courage to move on and do a lot of things. Well, just like the bucket list ( I am not dying!), i gotta make a list of to do's soon, before i enlist and striking them out one by one. Haix. Just hope the most impt one will be a big FAT TICK!!

London

The feeling of going to the airport is both exciting and saddening. Everything i go to the airport, it always gives me the feeling of how great it's gonna be if i can go overseas. But usually it is jus to send someone off. And tt's very very sian, esp it is ur best buddy that u are sending off.

Sent Terrance off last night. And indeed he cried. Haha. It's sad, now that i hv no more gym buddy and gyming alone once again. But i am glad he is gg off to further his studies. Hope to meet him soon nxt yr, if he still remembers his frenz. Haha.

Off to mugging again. Argh!

Bitch!

Woah. F1 is really cool! Too bad i didn't go down to watch it. Haha. Anyway, studying is more impt now. Can't fail at the last moment.

Failing and falling once and again. My life is really full of ups and downs. I need more ups. Looking at some photos really drives the anger in me. I must learn to control my emotions. Just like the Jedis. I must not let emotions interfer in my affair. Lol. (Hardcore fan of Star Wars) Haha. Pity i cant be like the Sith. Haha.

"The fear of loss is a path to the Dark Side." Yoda

"Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose."Yoda

"Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger; anger leads to hate; hate leads to suffering. I sense much fear in you." Yoda

I must conquer the fear and move on. Believing in myself. Thought the dark side is tempting, but i know i mus follow the right path for now. Haha. It is studying and studying. Till the end of A's. Haix. I hope something good comes into my life soon.

Yoda my idol!

EMO!!!

"Regret for wasted time is more wasted time"
Mason Cooley, O magazine 2004

What is there to regret when you realise that all the efforts you put in have come back to zero. Just like the unstable economy that struck the World a few days ago. People's hard earned money and all the investment and hopes they have, shattered in a spilt second.

If i continued to blame myself, blame those around me, blame my surroundings and blaming everything. It is just wasting more time. Picking myself up and keep fighting, that is the best solution.

Met up with Paul and Dexter on Saturday and we went to have lunch together. I realised that i have been finding excuses, been finding reasons to escape reality. Probably the reason i am not doing well now is not that i can't do it and i desperately need tuition. Probably i do, but that maybe not be the solution.

I realise 2 things that i need the most after talking to Paul and Dex, "Focus" and "Belief". Focusing on what you are studying and concentrating on whatever you are learning, will help me save more time than waste them. "Belief" is when you believe in what you are doing is right and never give up. This is what that brings results.

"The bad news is time flies. The good news is you’re the pilot." Michael Altshuler

Time is someting that i am able to control. Time does not wait, time does not stop, time keeps moving and it is how fast i move so that i am not left behind. I was shocked that Terrance is leaving next Wednesday. Time really flies! Meeting him was a blessing and i am glad i have met such a good buddy. He must be feeling frustrated and confused. Being excited about going to UK to study and not being able to let go of all his friends in here.

"Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear - not absence of fear." Mark Twain

I am scared of the exams, scared of being a signle person, scared of not doing well, I fee like a coward and a loser at times. I thank my family and my good friends around me for encouraging me and motivating me. Finding solutions to problems can only be done, if i am ready to face it directly. The courage to face it, fighting my fears, has to be done by myself and solved by myself. This is life and it is only going to get worse as i grow older. Sitting in the MRT today, i looked around and i realised how life is going to be like. Treasure the times that i have, it is not going to comeback nor is it going to wait. Face the challenges one by one. I am ready to move on to the next step. This is for Terrance, my good buddy:

"A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step." Lao-Tsu

All the best for your studies in UK. Thought it is a new beginning, a start of Uni life, don't forget your friends here, in Singapore.

Haix...

1st wk of prelims is over. This prelims kinda sux. The paper were not as easy as it seems to be. Standard has definitely increase from last yr. Gotta really jus do de best i can for the rest of the papers and hope to see some improvements from mid yrs. Haix...

Prelims

Yes. Prelims start tmr and I hv this unprepared feeling. Feels like i am gonna get fucked. I really need more time, but the unfocused studying that i hv been hving, giving me more time makes no use at all. With all the time i hv, let's hope that i can focus and make things better. LOL!

Unlucky?

Got de iphone at long last. Been spending lots of money on it unexpectedly. Blaming it on hving bad luck or a painful and expensive lesson. I don't noe. All i noe is tt i am in a veri 'broke' situation. And can't really let it bother me, cos prelims is coming.

But out of all the emo and sad and pain, sometimes, frenz tt are so close to u really cheers me up.

Take care man, James. Enjoy ur Taiwan trg. He even msged me b4 he left. I am quite touched by it.

Gotta eat less and save more. I need a miracle.

Scarcity

Stressed up. The feeling of not being productive and knowing that the deadlines are sinking in is killing me. I need to really make myself do some productive work.

Gosh. So many things i wan and so limited capital. Economics problem on scarcity really applies to me. Haha. Iphone, new pair of sunglasses, a new wallet, havanas... So many. Argh! Plus prom is coming, i gotta really start saving man. HAiX.

So many weird things happened today. Woke up late, stone and watch tv. Hit the gym before gg over to study at SOT wif Carol, Ivy and Ruo lin. Did some work dere and recap phy a bit wif Carol. Quite pissed off. Dad is really muddle headed when it comes to handling stuff and really makes me damn mad. Temper is quite bad lately. Stress always make me hard to control the anger. Haix...

I need a job after A's man. And not one, i guess a few. Lol... And i need to stop sighing...

Alas...

Hoho. It's coming at last. After a long wait. It is going to be delievered to my place this wed. Argh! Wad a wrong timing plus super distracting. Gonna hv GP paper the nxt day.

Mugging. Been doing a lot lately. Stress is killing me. Gotta push myself and focus. Onli 2 months left to A's. I believe i can do it.

Cant wait for the iphone to come. Till then i better continue mugging.

70

Punch those morons! Punch them down!

I need more time!! I need my motivation back! I need to watch my diet seriously.(random) LOL!

I wan to mug at Starbucks at United Square. Wonder if she's dere.

70 days more!

Criticism

I jus learnt something veri meaningful and it has become one of my fav. quotes:


Don't mind criticism. If it is untrue, disregard it; if unfair, keep from irrtation; if it is ignorant, smile; if it is justified, it is not criticism - learn from it.

Clones!

Clones? Of myself and not her. Lol. Haha. It's fate. I meet the other 'her' again. And i think she noticed. Lol. I guess i am still noob.

I need more courage. =)

Went supper wif Nigel, Cedric and Daniel. Nigel asked me a real good question. Why i say i wanna do business? Actually, he's right. I don't really know. Actually i tot i know a lot, but i realise i don't. I am confused and unsure. I need a direction. I need a light to show me my path.

Probably they are all guiding me. The supper wif them i learnt a lot. Like a ninja in secret training. I need to do what i must and at the same time, find a direction. The signs are slowly directing me towards the correct path. It's jus up to me and see if i am taking the path of my choice.

I need to focus and doing it badly. Handling the A's is now the no.1 piority. 'U mus do what u like!' and i really enjoy challenges. Thought it is tough doing it alone. But i will get thru it.

iphone

I got the iphone booked. Woah! Hope i am able to get it. I really wan it for so long so long.

Saw the Nokia touch screen phone. Haha. Like wad Jeremy said, it is almost exactly the same as iphone. Wtf. Haha. Could tell there is a lot of competition these days.

4 days of break. I really need to do some productive studyin. I need more time, how i wish i could hv more of myself to help me do stuff.

The Good Old Days

Been lazy to blog lately. I am feeling so sick of sch that i don noe y i am gg. I cant even finish my revision and sch has been stacking all the time practice which is jus a waste of time. Today is 080808, opening of the Beijing Olympics. Haha. Took some glimpse on the tv, no time to watch actually. Need to do my revision.

Suddenly hit me to realise y clubbing nv feel the same as before. Was looking at some of Reu piano videos on Youtube. I jus got the old times feelings rushing back. I understand y i never feel the same when i club this year. It is not that clubs are changing, but rather it is the people i am going with hv changed.

I still remember the days where i would meet Reu and Justin at bishan and head down to either Zouk or Home club tgt. Haha. Those were the days, with SAFSA and sometimes the company of the nteam mates. I really miss everyone. I really miss our training days and our times when we hv our 'night training'. Time flies, life goes on, i am gg to take my A's soon and they are gg to uni soon.

I guess i am lucky to hv met them. To hv such a short but wonderful journey with them. Such experience that i will nv forget and never be able to experience it again. Probably what Cedric say about me doing things not my age, is something i am not agree with. Thanks guys for the great times together.

3 months left to A levels. I am all focused and ready to chiong like a mugger.

Cant wait for all this to end.

Thanks guys!

@_@

I am so tired. Getting this weird feeling in my stomach. Oh well. Not really bothered by it. Jus feels a bit weird.

I really gotta make some time meet up wif PH this wk and study wif him. Do some catching up wif him. Really wish i could sit at StarBucks, enjoy the coffee and maybe some snacks. Haix. But gotta add in the mugging. ONli bout 90 days or so left. Motivation is raging.

XD

Weekend was productive. Manage to do some productive revision. Gotta start my final sprints for the prelims. Plan hard for revision and make sure i am well prepared.

Found a good place to study. Furthermore, it has bus for me to go home. I guess iam gonna study late at novena. Gd atmosphere to study in. Back to studyin once more, no time to loss.

Serious

Sleeping for 3 hours is definitely not enough if you have one full day ahead. Saving money and trying to cut down on food u crave olso doesn't work, esp when u hv so little sleep.

Yup. Why so serious? Really gotta applaud that joker act was the best in this Batman movie 'Dark Night'. He was able to show a different type of joker that will stay rooted in the viewer's minds for many days. I will really give him 4.5 out of 5 for his brillant act.

Learnt something new today. Think i am beginning to understand and know things more after clearing my doubts. Mr Tong's Speedboat vs Cruise Ship really let me think quite a bit. Thought i hvn't gotten an answer, it brought me a new view to the whole picture. I am glad i asked.

Really hope the answer dawn upon me soon. Really need a haircut, hair is in a mess. Friday meet the parents, veri sian. And so many things i need, ipod touch and a new wallet, i really need a miracle or a gd fairy godma. Gotta go focus on my study. My life till A's will jus be mug, train, sleep and eat. Maybe could squeeze in some time for 1 or 2 movies and maybe some shop ard tt's all. Other than tt, it is MUG MUG MUG! Cos i am serious!

'There is no place like home.'

'There is no place like home.'

Familiar phrase. Gotta agree wif the phrase. No place like home. I am beginning to learn how to appreciate it.

Ok. Tt's jus something random. Sometimes i am jus so confused and don noe wad i am thinking of. Like now, i am really confused. Took some time off to be alone. Jus totally alone. ( i am serious) And i guess it's not tt bad, like how my mom mentioned it. At least u don hv to wait and jus do whatever u wan to do. Only person answerin to is jus yourself.

I think this time off alone thingy is gd. Maybe shall include it sometime in every month. Now i gotta freshen up and back to the books. Argh! Cant wait fer A's to end. I need a break.

X_X

This is a BAD week. Very bad. So many stupid things happened. Thank God this wk has ended. Nth beats stayin at home.

Oh well, stayin at home gives me the opportunity to catch up on my work. Since all the suay-ness for this wk has ended, hope the gd luck starts pourin in nxt wk.

Argh! They didn't approve my application. Luckily, the other one has been approved. Oh well, this gives me a reason to spend less. I guess i should. I need a new wallet. Better look out for one soon... Back to work.

Ninja!

Work is piling up and it feels as thought no matter how much time i hv is also not enough. I am hving one of those feelings where everything ard me is jus so empty. The emptiness in me makes me feel as thought everything ard me seems unfair and giving me fatigue.

Met Jia Bin fer tuition jus now. He was nice to give me tuition for maths and chem every wk. At least now, i hv someone to guide me thru my maths and wont get stuck for hours not knowing what to do.

I am so gonna get Cedric for what he did to me in gym today. Haha. Met some SA girl that used to take bus from same bus stop as me everyday. Too bad, she graduated and she came gym today. Went up to ask her if she know my friend. And tt spark off Cedric and his big mouth! He is gonna get it from me. Lol.

Read a small portion of a book. I come to realise that ' Successful people are not talented.It is what drives me to the success.' Well, I got my license, so success here i come. Like a secret ninja, i am in trg!

_|_

I feel so tired and it is jus the beginning of the wk. Everything seems so draggy. I feel so shag and i can barely take a break.

Gotta be strong, gotta be strong. 6 weeks left. Deadlines seem to get closer and i better speed up. More focused now, gym and study.

I need to train hard and study hard. Mr Tong's lesson today was great. Nth more to say, gtg pack up and catch some sleep. Luckily tmr is a short day.

Cant seem to stop getting the song by Timbaland and Ne Yo out of my head. Lol

>_<

It's been quite a disastrous day.

First i went down to cox fer the juniors after a long time been away from dragonboating. Then i gotta realise that the currents today were exceptionally strong.

It really reminded me of the days where Reu was ard and he would somehow go out there and face the danger. Face his fears and emerge out as a brave warrior that had conquered his fear. Unlike him, i was a bit coward.

I went out there, did my best, at alas my worst fear came true. The last race, which i don understand how they had made it to the Tai Finals, i crashed and cause the DQ. The opponent boat had already eaten to my lane before the race even started, to avoid i sorta overturned the boat and ate to the first lane, before cutting back to my lane like some Initial D movie.

What made things worse was the stupid officials had to criticise me. The feelings really sucks. I agree i shopuld get a coxing cert. and part of the incident was my fault. I am a no experience coxer. I learnt my coxing from the Nteam and SAFSA mates, Ah Hee and my brilliant frens, Reu and Chee. I practised it every trg and every opportunity. I even trained other teams and u claim i am of no standards. Fucking officals have no brains at all. If it wasn't for the exams, i would still be training hard in nteam and SAFSA or Mountbatten.

Sometimes it sucks, but I always believe that what goes around comes around. Gotta be the change that you want to see in people, even if it sucks. I think I'll just sleep.

Sales are still going on. I still need my boxes from Zara and maybe could grab some stuff for topman. Sianx. I am suppose to save money and get my haircut nxt wk.

I need a miracle.

Tired!!

I am so tired. Tired from my studies, tired from all the owrkouts and esp. tired from thinking so much. So tired that i slog in bed today till bout 11.

Forced myself to go fer a jog before gg out to meet the guys. Watched 'HellBoy 2' today. Wasn't veri impressed with the movie thought. Felt like it was combination of LOTR, Jay Chou's Golden Armour and bit of Narnia and Matrix. Lol. Every movie produced nowadays all seem to look the same. Not impressive at all. As thought the movies are jus created with the same ideas and concepts, but with different characters onli.

Guess it is not worth my money watching these movies. Better use the time to study instead. I need to make myself more productive tmr. Finding more bout the economies in the 1990s has took quite some time. I need to start mugging soon..

Education?

Mid yrs ended and jus as i tot i am gonna get a well derserved break, messages flooded de phone. Homeworks and a lot more work are already prepared. J2 is tiring, i cant even take much break after my exams. Even thought the journey is tough, i believe there are 'angels' ard me lookin after me, giving me gd advices over the last few days.

It started on my gp lecture day. The topic was education. I was already veri sian wif my new time- table and all the work that i hv to complete jus 2 days after exams. The lecture on education was not jus on the topic education, it had the elements of reality in it. It made me think real hard. A question was asked "How would you like to be remembered when u die?" and another was "Do you think you will feel u hv succeeded if u died tmr?" One thing came to mine, the Dragonboat Tragedy. I realised that i hv succeeded in a way or another if i really had to die tmr, at least i hv spent a lot more times wif family and friends compared to how i was like previously. I hv learnt to treasure everything i hv and value everything ard me. I believe i hv reach quite a few check points on my journey thru life. Like wad they say, a successful journey really depends on whether we reach the final destination we wanted to get to in the first place. It has taught me to fight harder for my goals and my goals are wad i really love, wad i really want. Mid yrs result will not be tt gd i noe it fer myself. It is a failure, as i noe i did not put in the hard work and effort that i should hv. The lecturer said "Failure can refine you. Don't let it define you." I hv now found the meaning and the reason to study hard for prelims. With them in mind, i am a step closer towards both my short and long term goals.

I went for J1's dragonboat trg, which is my 'grand- juniors'. Lol. Met a few Nteam mates, laughing at my fair skin. At least my muscles are still there. Haha. Somehow juniors all don dare to talk to me. Talked to CJ and i am glad he chose to do what he likes and not forcing himself to do things he don like. I believe if u play to your natural strength, stick to the stuff you love, more and more will follow. He also said the same to me. It's great meeting them. The more reason y i hv avoided Kallang. Meeting Ah Hee and all the nteam mates, makes it difficult for me to let go of dragonboating. Like what Kingley say" Study hard! U can always dragonboat after ur exams." I cant wait for the day my A's end and i can go back and train with them. And even help Ah Hee wif the junior's trg.

Today i met Cedric, had lunch wif him. HE motivated me and ask me to find the meaning for everything i do. He said that once u find the meaning of things u wanna do, the things jus become easier and easier and u will realise it is never boring to do them. U will enjoy wadever you are doing and overcome them easily with no fear at all. I tot hard and i hv learnt a great deal frm him today. Haha. Got my printer at last and decided to blog out this meaningful entry so that i wont forget it. Gotta go bath and complete my work.

Shrinking!!!!

Burning from the fatigue of studying late and squeezing my brain juice trying to ans the fuckin qn of the mid yrs exam papers. I feel like shit. Hvn't been gymin, could feel myself shrinking. Maths paper was pretty cool, phy and chem totally sux. Now i hv to spend my wkends doin my econs.

Met Cedric and Daniel on fri nite. Been long time since i seen them and Cedirc once again appeared wif something funny. Haha. It's pretty awesome to meet time. Like what he says " Bishan gym has a home feeling". I gotta agree, it's the place where many things has happened, a place that has truly changed me.

I guess after toking to them and seeing Nigel aka The Hulk back, i am really motivated to mug. They are really truly motivations like how Reu was a motivation. I cant wait fer mid yrs to end. The exams are really burning me out. Gotta go back ta mugging. Hope i can keep this blog gg after my exams.

Random

Dreams really can come true, but they are most often the result of hard work, determination and persistence.

When the end of the journey seems impossible to reach, remember that all you need to do is take one more step. Stay focused on your goal and remember... each small step will bring you a little closer.

When the road becomes hard to travel and it feels as if you'll never reach the end... look deep inside your heart and you will find strength you never had.

I haven't blog fer a long long time. Probably i was lazy and i jus didn't feel like writing. I was mentally blocked, mid yrs coming and i jus didn't hv much mood to write. Furthermore, my addiction to soccer all of a sudden has become part of the reason. Haha. Guess Euro was not what i had expected.

Back to topic, I was cleaning up my drawers when i found all the cards she written to me. She did write a lot to me. Probably i was still too immature i guess, i barely took the time to read all the cards. The effort that she took to write, the heart and soul she has put in to do it. My heart sank as i continued reading. I have to admit i do miss her. I do regret not treasuring the times tgt with her. She did make many efforts to show how she cared for me. I wonder how it felt for her when we both decided to break up. The broke up did strengthen my mental and taught me to be independent and to grow stronger.

She did have her flaws, she was easily influenced and has no decisions bout anything at all. Makes me pretty mad at times. But her silent caring ways and her soft hearted and gentleness covered her flaws and this made me harder for me to let go. I keep claiming i hv let go and moved on, but i nv did. I was only lookin for a substitute and trying to find another her. Maybe she moved on, found someone better and hv forgotten bout me. Probably that is the reason, but deep down inside i hope it's not the reason, i believe it is another.

Life is unfair sometimes i guess. But tt does not stop me from making dreams come true. I got a lot of dreams and each one are very sweet. Like how hardworking the bees are harvesting honey, i will work hard and soon dreams will become reality. But some sweet dreams are too far to be reached, maybe i jus gotta do what the quote says. Look deep inside my heart and find the strenght i never knew i had...

Dreams

Dreams, i guess we are all just made of dreams. I hv dreams too, many actually. I come ot realise that dreams are just dreams. They are never part of reality, they will always be sweet, be something nice (otherwise it's nightmare, lol) and something that a part of u really desires it. Dreams will never come true.

Or that is wad i used to believe. Until i met Reu, Nigel, Cedric and many more that i cant name. I came to realise this. Dreams are sweet, everyone has them. But they can come true and the sweet things that appear in ur dreams will become ur reality, maybe not exactly the way u dream of it. They will come to 'life', when u hv taken actions to make these dreams of urs come true. I hv to agree, when u hv taken serious actions dreams do come true. Like how i wish to be part of SAFSA and Nteam, my tough and strainous training paid off. I was able to make my dreams come true. And many of them did it, which is y i am so motivated all of asudden. I realised that i hv dreams that i desire so much and for it to happen, i am gonna take actions and serious actions. I hv place my passion aside, but it does not end there. My dreams of going to uni has sparked off a motivated me. Study, eat, sleep and gym, these are gg to be the nxt phase of these yr till the A's are over.

Drifting off, i msg her. As expected, i knew she would ignore. I did take actions, to still be frenz. But since u made it clear, i knew it well. Terrance tell me, y would i go find the misery again. Tt's true, there are better ones out there. Maybe wad Bran say was true, thought it is a bit 'noob' i guess. 'It's hard to let go.' I know of some who jus cant let go, but i think i gotta. Maybe her thinkings are still as shaky as how it was like. I don noe. Wad i noe is that i hv matured. I hv moved on wif life and hving a gd future ahead. I hv dreams that i noe is gonna come true and when it does, i am glad i hv so many gd frenz ard tt helped me.

Miss

I mus really stop listening to sad or emo songs. These songs jus probably reflect a part of ur emotions, the most weakest part. I gotta agree that Max Shanti's When i Get there has really become one of my most favourite song. The lyrics seem to be so true that i feel as thought i hv become part of the song.

Been trying hard to study after SPA, gotta find ways to focus once more. I really feel quite emotional these few days, over things i see and even in my dreams. Lol. Sometimes i really feel veri lousy. I really miss Reu and Chee sometimes. They used to be my motivators and now they have left, things hv become so different. Changes are gd, but not all of them are pleasant. I miss rowing, each time as i see the nteam boat passby. This thought always hit me, i should be in there. Fortunately, I am glad i met some gd pals in the gym, giving me gd advice and i know i mus focus and study hard.

It's only half a year left, like how Reu tried to make the World a better place through his music. I wanna study hard and really inspired to be as successful as him. Like what he always tell me," Dont be nua!"

When I Get There

When I Get There By Max Shanti

This may sound crazy
It probably is
but could you tell me where
true love is

Just point me in the right direction
i swear i wont make a sound
i'm looking for a neon sign
it's what i haven't found

they say it's gone south
where all the good things go
you'll see the flashing lights
and you know you are home

And there's no fancy name for it
No one knows who the Aphrodite is
It's only rain and rainbows
and the promise of bliss
But when i get there
It just is

I believe in love
but it's probably not for me
romance, the chase, the attractive engima
it's not me

I thought i was there before
but my heart got broken you see
I heard it's not easy
but you'll know you're home

And there's no fancy name for it
No one knows who the Aphrodite is
it's only rain and rainbows
and the promis of bliss
But when i get there
it just is

All these questions
I gotta ask before i go
If i'll never find it
will you let me know?

And there's no fancy name for it
No one knows who the Aphrodite is
It's only rain and rainbows
and the promise of bliss
But when i get there
It's just is

SPA?!?

YooHoo! SPA is over at last. After an intensive 2 days, the dreaded moments hv gone and now a burden has gone. Haha. Jus heard Maroon 5's song' Better that we break'. An awesome song and totally in love wif it. I really enjoy Maroon 5 songs. I really like their songs and i guess they hv become my fav band.

Gym in sch today, cant believe my strength is improving. Gotta rush a bit later, going to meet Po Han fer dinner tonight. Even he is busy, quite sian he is going overseas sia. Well goot a concentrate fer mid years now. Haix. Time to push like how i did fer SPA. Really mixed feelings now. I think i need to start using the right head, like wad Terrance says. Sometimes lonliness jus drive me insane. Lol.

Feeling or Fate?

It has really been a while since i last blog. Been veri busy. Even now as i am doing this i still got loads of work at hand. The coming holiday is jus a bullshit. Haha. Hving SPA exams in 2 days time. Gotta do loads of preparations fer it. And the mid years right after the holidays and i still got loads of studying to do. I really hv no time to rest. Really gotta squeeze some tme out to rest abit and do some catchin up wif some frenz.

It is really tough, but actually it's quite great being able to go thru so many stuff alone. Thought the feelings sux sometimes. Haha. The comment is jus so random. Smetimes i really wonder does she like me or is it jus a waste of time to wait. The emotions really sux. I really miss a lot of ppl. Sometimes i wonder is this a trial fer me to finish my this veri important year and grow to be a mentally stronger person. I can feel each day i am growing mentally stronger and closer to my parents. Maybe, it is their blessings fer me to do so. To learn the importance of my family.

Yesterday lecture, the recordings didn't work. Carol was rite. Haha. Oh well, doesn't matter, jus means i gotta ask the lecturer to help me record. Shall note this down. Haha. There was this frequent stares and i wonder wad it really means. Heard the frequent 'stare' person was here fer Master's. Sadly, i couldn't wake up or actually lazy to wake up. Haha. I was really hit hard by Terrance's words and i agree wif him. Sometimes wad he says is really right. If fate is there or if u really hv the feelings, we will meet again.

I shall try and keep this blog update during the holidays. A place fer me to destress. Now is back to SPA. I really hope it's both feelings and fate. But wad is the probabilty of tt?

Memories

Had a jog this morning, like how i used to do wif Reu. Went over to visit Reu's parents today. It's been a while since i been to his house. Remembered how often i used to go over his place to chill and even get my hair cut. I really miss him. Sometimes i still wish he was still ard motivating me to train and study harder.

Walked the usual route to Reu's house and had a really great chat wif uncle Freddie and Auntie Patsy. The more i chat, the more i realise how long he has left us. This really motivates me to really work hard and study hard to be the 'perfect' son tt every parents hope their child to be. And Reu has definitely become a role model for everyone. His music would live on and his memories will always stay rooted in my heart.

Reu say: 'Don't be nua!'
YiHe say: 'I wont and i NEVER will.'

Hope u can hear me dude. I will work hard and reach fer my goals. And thanks fer the muscle milk and the name tag, it will be something i will treasure dearly.

Family

Gotta rush all my work and clear all the test. Still wondering if i should participate in the weird event this fri in sch. Hope i can find someone join wif me.

While doing my work, this weird dream struck. (Ok, i am not focusing. Lol.) But this dream really shed some light to me. Let me discover the reason of everything. I realise what really makes a team strong. Actually it is not purely abt fitness. I hv to agree that fitness is part of it. But i realised one thing. It is tt every strong team, they hv found a 'home'. It does not mean i am ur dragonboat teammates and tt's it. It is something deeper. It is more than a friendship. It's as thought we hv become a family.

While training in SAFSA, i hv understand the true meaning of a team. Training tgt and taking care of each other. Each time, i see the members caring fer each other. Working tgt and taking care of one another. I come to realise tt team spirit is the most impt. No matter how much we clique wif our frenz, but in the end, we still come tgt as one. We still protect each other and take care of each other. It is onli thru this bond that a team grows and a team excels.

I understand y i nv stood in after my team left. It is the same as my family has left. And this 'family' bonding. I hv not seen in the nxt batch. I noe y i could not resist wanting to join Mountbatten. And how badly i missed rowing wif my SAFSA batch. It is because they r 'family'

Flu?!

Stupid flu. Why wont it jus go away. It's really killing me. Cant perform at my best while trg and i cant even run the dist i wanna go! Didn't manage to run to Potong as planned. But it's ok, at least i did my cardio. But the feeling really sux. Hope i get well soon. Sch work and trg, i really need to be in top form.

Been moody lately. Maybe because of the weather or because i am jus too tired. Better control my temper soon before it really pisses others and me off. Really remembered how bad my temper used to be. And wad made me change my temper. I really miss a lot of things. Guess i am really getting old. Haha. A lot of things has happened to me in the past year. And seriously my life has tremendously changed. I am proud to say that i am discovered my passion and what i am truly working hard for. Realise what i wan to achieve in the future. And mature in my thoughts. I even did things that i would not hv done in the past and even met ppl that i nvr knew i would meet. I guess the change was really needed. I wonder how things would be like if some of the events didn't happen...

I guess remembering the past is impt. But i believe it's time for me to look forward and move on. There are more impt things. More piorities to be set and i am all geared up ready to go. I am ready to come back stronger. It's a choice i hv made. [Hey Ninja, hope u see this. And i hv no regrets]

Papaya

Protein! It's running out. I need to stock up my protein soon. Jus so shagged and tired. Sch is really busy sia. At least there is always something to cheer me on and go on. So glad tt my klass is so interesting.

Celebrate Pala's birthday today. Really made her look like a joke. Haha. Cant write much. Gotta go to bed soon. Veri tired. Better checked up on my supplements b4 i rest.

I wish...

I wish i had more time. I wish i reverse all the mistakes i hv made. I wish i was smarter. I wish i was stronger(both physically, mentally and emotionally). I wish i could hv her back. I wish i could move on and go fer it. I wish and I wish will nv end.

I guess after today i really wish i had done many diff things. To some extent some things i hv done. I really felt great and glorious. But there r also regrets i hv made. This is life i guess. U gain some and yes, u gotta lose some. I am all prepared fer it. I am ready to pursue my dreams. Like wad Reu said. It's ur choice. Yes, i agree. My choice, either i do it or not. There is no in btw. I believe i will and i mus. Pressure is building i noe. But i hv been fighting an uphill battle fer my passion. And the 2nd uphill battle that i am gonna face, i am ready fer it.

After today's PA race. Thoughts start flooding into me. It really spur me to really let it all out. There r so many things i wish. If i had not seen 'her' in tt kayaking team in tt sch. It wouldn't hv made me think so much.( Fer info, i do not know the 'her' at all. She onli resemble someone. Lol) Seeing mountbatten training so hard and NJC. Really let's me think. So many thoughts flooding in. Really gives me a headache. Argh!

I guess wad is impt is to jus get 2 things done: that is Studies and register fer my Medical Check Up. Lol. Still a bit blur after celebrating Pala and Porky bday. Glad they enjoyed themselves.

Gold Day

It's Proky Birthday today. And look wad we got fer him. A Hello Kitty Balloon. Haha. We made him carry around the whole sch. And he kept trying to hide and complain. After so long, most of us tt kena disturbed by him has gotten our revenge at last. Haha. Jus look at Zhong Lin retated face. Lol. Looking at it really makes me wanna laugh.

I gotta admit that maybe repeating has really brought many changes into my lives. Happy and sad ones at the same time. I believe tt it was a gd choice and many great things has happened. One great thing was being in 0711. My class has really brought loads of joy into my life. Esp the guys and the three crazy gurls of my class. Haha. They r my greatest buddies tt i hv ever met. Always so steady and ready. And also bringing my passion to a new lvl and meeting many new gd frenz at the same time.

Went to RP after sch to take pics with Nicholas a.k.a the GOLDMAN. Haha. He was painted GOLD. And he looked damn cool. Gotta go do my work soon. I am really sick. Think i taking MC tmr. Argh!

GoldMan!

Busy

I am quite worried. NXt wk is gonna be busy busy busy. Sux totally, when ur life is bcak to is busiest pace ever. From sch work all the way to commitments u hv promised. Argh! But this is the way to make one succeed. I wonder how true this is. I really hope i could cope.

Went to trg at Bedok Resevoir fer Bedok Puggol CSC. Quite impressed that they did pretty well. Actually enjoyed myself in their trg. Even thought it is not de usual pusing one to its limits and the muscles burning feeling. But it was quite fun trg with them and it feels pretty gd.

I really need to relax a bit. But the problem is there is no time.

Mixed Emo

Should i laught or should i be worried. I really don noe. I am so confused, but deep down in my heart, there is a part of me that is feeling happy and mocking. Mybe it is wrong to be like that. But de scars that lies on me, has made me both happy and worried. I cant predict the future nor can i foretell any predictions. All i know is that things aren't gonna be the same.

Silver

Nafa test sux. Kena screwed by the thoopid standing broad jump. Haha. As expected. i cant jump, even CJ say it was difficult to teach. At least i hv gotten my silver and got it over wif.

Went down fer J1's trg. All i can say is that there is still a long long way fer them. Went to meet Paul fer dinner. We went to Holland V fer dinner. Me, him and Ke Li. Haha. Sorta felt a bit weird. Had a good chat. Oh wells. Another wkend wasted. Haix. At least i did all my tutorials. Gotta do my revidion nxt wk sia.

Mr. FM

Did some studyin today at the sch lib while waiting fer time to past. I am motivated to complete my phy tutorial by tmr nite. I shall make sure i do it. Haha. Funny things happened at gym today. Terrance 'Gay' was freakin late. And Rino decided to give him a name and even recommanded that he buy a new SWIMSUIT and not trunks. He shall be named Mr. FM frm now on. Lol. Terrance 'Gay' a.k.a Mr. FM. The 200m lunges we did nearly killed him. We really train as though we do not wan our lives sometimes. Didn't feel too well. Guess i gotta tuck in early and really make use of tmr time properly.

Argh! I feel like an earthquake. Lol.

April Fool

Today's April Fool's Day. But nth of tt sort of jking seem to be happening ard. Doubt there is much mood anyway. It's been a few months since he has left. Yet, the memories of him still resurfaces once in awhile. JUs a moment ago, it suddenly did.

I am pretty sure i am veri down, lonely and stressed up at this moment. Like wad he said," U mus be proud of wad u're doin and get ur own style." I realised that without him as a role model or guide, i am becoming nua again. Wtf. The wake up call, let me think, think real hard. I need to find my style of doing things and not blindly follow or get pushed ard. Like wad Cedric said to me, " I mus pick myself up frm the bottom and fight my way up."

I am motivated, fired up once agin. It's been long since i hv found this feeling. I am gonna give in my best, so that i am conquer the challenges, leap over all obstacles. Bro, ur presence in my heart has really woke me up. The woke up call that i hv long waiting is back. I am gonna rebuild myself once more. From today on, the 'old' 'motivated' me is back.

It's pretty weird, since it's quite long since i really blog. Gotta pour out most of my sorrows here. Emotions come and go veri often. And it is one particular one that makes me veri moody. Been hving weird dreams lately. Dreams tt really make me feel that the lonliness is killing me. Fuck! I feel like some nua piece of ****.

I wonder, how i could survive thru my sec 4 and j1 days. My turning pt had got to be last yr. And it totally change my perspective to everything. Some said that i hv matured, some said that it is jus the ppl u mix wif. I guess it is all Bullshit. I believe it is because it really hurts me a lot. And i hv no mood to recover frm this hurt. Or the one tt i had believe was the 'untouchable' , is still the one i am waiting for and thinking if she even noe i am waiting. Sometimes, some jus come and go. I really hope this emotions pass off soon. Or God really has something plan or Fate has already prepare a short treat. Jus wish that this is over with soon.

It is time to bring back an old quote:
"Let me tell you something you already know.The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows.
It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it.You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life.
But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward.How much you can take, and keep moving forward.That's how winning is done.
Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth.
But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody.
Cowards do that and that ain't you.
You're better than that!"

Wake Up Call

I am definitely awake. I hv at last awoken. I guess Green Day's Song hv woken me up frm a long dream. Time is getting shorter and i guess now is the time to wake up. I guess is back to the old routine once more, but this time i gotta be harder on myself. It's either now or never. Always remember the GOAL in mind!

So it is set then!

Motivation. Focus. Work Hard. I need them badly. I need them real bad. After seeing the release of the A level results today. The more i wan to study hard and do badly. After today, i am willing to put tings aside fer the moment jus fer me to focus in my studies.

I hv realised today that some things once u passed it, no matter how badly or how hard u regret. Time is nv gonna turn back and wait fer u to make the changes. I gotta treasure every moment i hv now, fully utilise them and make full use of it.It is no use wasting the time and regret it at the end of the day. Maybe dere r things i like to do, i believe wad Cedric and even Terrance has been telling me. 'If u r able to plan ur time properly, focus in wadever u do. There is nth unachieveable. U gotta work hard towards ur goal.' I wan to be like them and actually i did. I did work hard b4 and hv indeed reqached my goals.

My dreams and goals r set. To be in the top, to make the best out of everyhting. I will not be left behind, because i believe i can. The trials ahead and the hurdles ahead will jus be obstacles i know i can pull thru. I am not alone, i hv many ppl ard supporting me. I blieve i can and i will. After thinking thru today and seeing wad i hv seen, I hv got my motivation. Now it is fer me to find the other 2. It wont be tt hard, as the sight of today will be deeply rooted in my mind. And my goals will always be insight.

F***KED UP!!

Sch is so sian. Tiring and stressful. Tryin my best everyday to rush my tutorials so i can keep up with lessons. Furthermore, the f**king block test in ard 2 wks. WTF! I don even noe if i hv the time to study fer it.

Been gyming a lot lately. So much so that my wrists and everywhere is beginning to hurt. Sux man! Y cant i maintain a injury free record. Haix. Met a new gym parthner, Terrence Thong. He is my sec sch, Cat High senior and ex-NJC rower. Haha. Been so long since i had ppl pushing me and training so hard wif me in the gym. Really miss those feelings.

I gtg mug b4 i doze off. Haha.

Stayin Alive!

It's been a long long time since i last wrote in this blog. After CNY, sch has been so busy and stressful that i barely had time to even use the computer.

Actually there is really nth much to blog about also. Haha. Shall keep this blog alive. I really need more 'spice' in my life.

Chinese New Year

Time pass so fast. The Cinese New Year holiday is over. Haix. Got all the homework stacking up and i hvn't even started yet. Gotta start rushing them soon.

Chinese New Year was really busy. Visiting different houses everyday. Got a really bad headache on the first day. 2nd day was better. But i was too busy to even do some trg. Went out to chill wif classmates on 2nd day of CNY nite. Been so long since we went out tgt. We met at bout 10 plus and went to drink at Candy Bar in Clark Quay. I guess we really drank too much that some of them began sprouting and doin all sorts of stupid acts. Lol.

Went out wif James and Wei Ji on the 3rd day. Also met up wif Nicholas Loo and 'New Friend'. Headed down to airport to send Jana off. The whole holiday really ended veri fast. Haix. How i wish this holiday could last longer.

Anticipation

Chinese New Year is coming at last. Actually i am quite excited, even thought the festive mood is like diminishing every year, like the LDMR curve in economics. But the feeling of hving a break is so exciting. Mum says that New Year is getting worse each yr, but as it approaches and the effort they put in fer to make everything perfect shows that they still enjoy this wonderful festive season.

Been doing lots of new year shopping lately and spending a lot. Argh! Haha. Really gotta watch myself. Got lots of new clothings and been working out. Time trial is coming, it is going to show where i stand and i am quite worried. Guess i gotta train hard and mug hard. Been slacking a lot lately. Better buck up during this CNY period.

SIck

Been sick de past few days. Had fever, flu and sore throat. Totally sucks. Furthermore, sch is so busy that i barely had the time to post anything on the blog. Hope the New Year holidays would give me some rest.

Been doing some new year shopping fer the past few days. Everywhere is so crowded. Haha. Jus attended Ikhtia's Bday party. Eat freakin' a lot, so much tt i dont feel so gd now. Acks. Feel tired, think i better go rest. Long day ahead tmr. Sianx. Wish Monday nv comes.

Inspiration

It suddenly struck me while i was gyming half way. It really show how dragonboat was in my life. I agree that it has indeed made an impact in my life, gaining lots of friends and acquaintance along the way. It is also the sport that spur up the competitiveness in me and also build up a strong mental strength.

I could remember how weak and new to the sport. Yes, i would agree if anyone comes up and tell me now that dragonboat is a team sport. Precisely, because it is a team sport. It makes things even more competitive. It either strengthen you or break you. Firstly, u hv to compete wif all ur teammates. Or u hv to train hard to make sure u do not lose out to them. Secondly, u got to train hard as a team to compete wif other teams. Thirdly, u hv to compete wif fatigue and time, so that u r able to do all ur work. The level of competition in this sport is practically everything and anything. And it is this, tt brought me to wad and hu i am now. I am not gg to let myself down, because i believe in wad Cedric says. U mus love wad u do, no matter how stress or tough, if u wan ot badly, u can do it.

Met a new fren at gym today. And coincidentally, he's Justin's gd fren. Wad a small world. Begin to enjoy training at Bishan gym and meeting all the new frenz. I am really motivated.

I HaTe Phy

I hate sch. Jus so sick of it. I feel that i am getting nothing out of all the trg. Had 2 tests today and it totally drained my brain juice. And as expected, i FAILED my physics test. Sianx. I really need to mug harder now.

Went to gym today and met Justin after such a long time. He looks different. Shagged and not as tough looking as before. He said he is injured, probably, i really miss the old confident and self motivated him. He told me nteam time trial will be nxt month and i really hope to c him dere, recovered and back to his old self. Seeing him reminds me of Reu.

I really think i should consider hard abt joining nteam. There is no harm going fer the time trial. But commitment in the team is another question. Mom keeps reminding me bout A's this yr and everyone else too. I really need an enlightenment and an answer. I guess i am really nua now without you acting as a motivating role model.

Tests

Argh! Chem test tmr. And i look at the T.Y.S. It is so demoralising. I really gotta start doin serious and focused mugging. Gotta stop nua-ing and start to be focus. I missed my holidays. Ack!

Jus So Random

I guess things are very unpredictable. U nv know what is gonna happen. U nv know whether the nxt step or the nxt move u take is the right one or not. It's jus disheartening to see things that u nv expect urself to find out and yet u find out abt it. I am beginning to think that no matter how i try to improve or change, the way things r meant to be, will stay the same and there is no use rushin into anything. I really need an enlightenment.

Gym today at Bishan. Met Daniel and Cedric. Sorta rush thru my workout, time is really a major factor when sch reopens and this really sucks! But i am enjoying the busy schedule and the stress, even though i keep saying i hate it. It is actually keeping me busy and not think so much. It was productive studying with Cedric, he jus keeps asking to study and wont talk to you. And just by looking at him study really motivates you to study too. I think i must really study with him more often.

I think i really need to take one step at a time. The way i am progressing now is quite productive. I guess Cedric advice maybe right, i should really plan my time well and focus on my studies. I believe i can do it. I think there is no point in rushing into anything now. Jus gotta do what is the most impt now and leave those not so impt stuff aside first. Argh. I need a break! This emoing is killing me. Haha.

Surprise

Visit Reu's parents today. Went over to hand a medal that was given to the nteam during the Standard Charted Marathon. His mom say he loved to collect medals and we went to see his room that we always play his ps3 and even watch anime in. Thought the incident has passed fer so long and he has left us fer so long. But when we went to his house today, really brought back a lot of memories. I really miss the days where we played his ps3 while we wait fer him to cut our hair.Those times will always stay deep in my memories.

At Reu's House

Rush down to Yvonne's house after that. Kai Shuo almost spoil the whole surprise by calling her. Nevertheless, we still manage to surprise her. Got quite a shocked when she suddenly cried. Haha. Overall, guess the surprise party really turned out fine. The food was also veri nice. Sang a lot of Bday songs and the cake was veri delicious. It mus be a really memorable day fer her. Really wish my Bday would be like this.

farewell

Had dinner with James, Kai Shuo, Rudi and Teng Ming today at an indo restaurant at Lucky Plaza today. It was like a gathering before James is gonna enlist this Fri. Haha. Really sux. Met up in sch, before heading down to Lucky Plaza. TOday sch had CCA Bazaar, met Yvonne and a few other teammates. Yi Yang also enlisting tmr. Poor Yvonne, kena builled cos we kept acting don noe wad is so special bout Sat.

Really had a great time with James and the rest. Went to shop ard b4 heading to Centre Point Mac fer dessert. Haha. And we discussed bout my bday. lol. Sure gonna miss him. Haha. But it's onli 2 to 3 wks b4 i c him again. Take care man!

Sucks!!!

Today is a BAD day. Totally crazy. Insane to be exact. 5 lectures, 2 tutorials and 1 practical. It is a mind draining day. Before the last lesson even started, the whole class was dragging their feet like mindless zombies to the phy lab. The onli survival of the whole thing was our phy teacher. HE was like the main character in I AM LEGEND, tryin to save the 'World'.

As expected, i could predict how things r turning out to be in NYJC. Luckily i escaped the grasp of being an athlete in the sch tt will nv be recognised. So much fer training beyond the limits fer the sch. I guess one day, all sports athletes will disappear and all tt is left will jus be another Arts sch. Haix. Really let's ppl think where the effort is gg.

I really need a NEW time table. One with more breaks or early dissmal.

Down

Really had no mood doing homework these few days. Totally sick of this ineffiecient work rate. Furthermore, i am losing de motivation once more. Feel like a weakling.

Talking to her really makes me both sad and angry. But it's been over so long. Clearly, she has really moved on. Telling me to do it too. It looks so easy and seeing her moving on gives me mixed feelings. But it looks so difficult fer me. I hv more things bothering me both mentally and physically. I really hope tt the one appearing in my dreams would feel the same too. Then maybe fer once, i can believe in wad she say.

I need to WAKE UP.

Meaningful

Sch ended early today. Head down to gym at Bishan. Been training and mugging hard, back to the old style. The question is back fer me to ponder. Should i continue rowing or not? But after all the little chat today, i am really unsure.

"So how long hv u rowed?"

"Bout 3 yrs?"

"Not tired of it?"

"..."

Been chatting with Daniel today. He went to gym at the same time as me. The red lines r wad he said. It really makes me think. This yr is really tough, with all the exams and all the lessons ending veri late. But this does not hinder me from continuing my passion. I hv given up a lot of things fer this passion and i am not willing to give up now. But the promises and resolutions i hv made this yr. Ib elieve i really gotta think twice. Haix. I really gotta think thru it.

Training has been productive and studyin too. But tireness is surfacing and it is really killing me. Really gotta rest well this wkend. I really agree with wad Daniel said today.

"It is all about wad u really want. If u dont know wad u wan, then u got to do something tt u think is realistic to u in the future."
"It's not about what other people can think or do. It's all about what u can do."

I am really glad to hv heard all these from him. Really been great chatting with him. The first wk of this new year has been great. I believe that the rest of the year will be a great one too.

SchooL

Yupz. Sch has started and the work r stacking. Busy, busy and many more busy. Teachers r scaring and threatening us, using all sorts of method jus to make us study. Haha. Gotta be a new person this year. Consisent in my work. Cant write much. Gotta go do all my homework. Need a break soon. Argh! Back to the boring life once more.

New Year

Yes. The New Year has arrived. It also marks the end of the holidays and the start of a new school term. Sigh! Piles of homework all not done. Start of another torturous moments.

Went fer countdown wif my best buddy, Victor. Planned to go fer countdown at homeclub, but changed our minds and decided to head down to MoS. Haha. They gave us some weird party accessories. It wasn't very crowded when we first reached. But soon it became veri crowded when the time approaches new year.

Freakin pack and it was totally insane. But the crowd also spur up the mood fer the countdown, esp when the countdown start from the last minute. The music at MoS was also quite gd tt day. Thought it was a veri ex entrance, but it was the first time i enjoy my time at MoS. Hadn't had much gd experience dere. But fer me, i still think Zouk is the best, esp Mambo Nights. Haha. Really missed the times.

After that, we decided to leave early, took last train back to Bishan. And Vic head down to my house fer stayover, where we drink and chat.

Year 2007, a veri eventful and a year full of emotional memories. The year which i gain many things in Life, also a year which i lost many things in Life. It is a year that i will never forget. Coming back from a setback and able to pull through. A year of breakthrough fer myself in the passion that i have. It has really been a nawesome year. Really wish that year 2008, a crucial year, will not not be a better, but another great and awesome year.

Wishing everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR.