$$$

The feeling of being broke is killing me. Being stuck at home everyday, knowing that there's sales everywhere and not being able to go out dere and shop like crazy. I feel like a hamster stuck in my poor little cage.

Argh! Cant take it anymore. Homework clearance rate is even slower. Better start to increase my work rate or new year's day will be dooms day fer me. Onli bout 4 days left. The term 'sch reopen' really makes me feel i am like a patient with an incurable disease waiting fer my doomsday to come.

I think i really need to party on new year's eve or i am gonna start to rot and be a 'good' boy when sch starts.

BleaHHHHHH

I am tired of gyming everyday. I am sick of looking at my homework pile. I am sad that sch is gonna reopen. I feel like BLEAH!!!!

I feel so lethargic training everyday. But the overload seems to show its results. So haapy that the fat percentage machine cant detect my fat, cos the person say my fat percentage is LOW. Haha.

Really hope i can maintain this. I really need to find a club soon.

I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row.

This is how desperate i am. Hope SAFSA is still hving NSF. Haha. I really wish nteam trg resumes soon. I wan to row.

Merry Christmas!

Had a christmas countdown last night with my NYDB buddies. Before that i went to do some last minute shopping. Sianx. Really spent a lot this year christmas.

Went down to Plaza Sing. Wanted to walk down to Orchard but realising tt everyone was late. We decided to stay in the area to do out countdown. Maybe the way we dressed, no one dared to spray the foam at us. How disappointing.

Went to Yvonne's house. Her ouse is so huge. We played DDR and chatted before i dozed off. Quite an eventful christmas eve. Haha. Wishing everyone a Merry Christmas and A Happy New Year!!

Bad Day

Argh! Hate organising gatherings, esp when everyone jus ignores ur ideas and use their own. Wad is the use of askin someone to organise when u dont even plan to use the idea in the first place.

Had a gathering at glasshouse Fish & Co. today. WTF. Planned to hv Bbq at Yi Yang's place in the beginning. Changed to a Turkish Restaurant at Arab Street and in the end, they decided to go to their desired place.

I really feel disheartened and disappointed when these things happen. It is gonna be the last time fer me to organise any outing wif the guys.

1 more wk b4 sch reopens. Gotta arrange an outing wif the SAFSA guys soon, b4 everyone gets busy. Let's hope Christmas outing would be a better one.

Presents

It's that time of the year again. Christmas session is here. And the is SALES everywhere. Went shopping that day and i noticed almost every store is hving sales.

Got my sis a pair of NUM trackers, if that is wad they called. Going broke jus tryin to think of all the presents to get fer everybody. Haix. Wonder wad presents will i receive this year. Hope i am getting wad i wan fer X'mas this year. Haha. At least gather some of my Chinese New Year's clothings wishlist. Heh.

Wrist is feeling bit weird these few days. Mus be frm the heavy and long lifting sessions. And it is really affecting me. Need it to recover soon. Gotta pumped up b4 sch reopens. I need to find a motivation soon. The feeling of lethargic is coming back. 'Mus not be NUA!!!'. Need to find a club soon and hope nteam is still gonna resume trg soon. In the meantime, I better do my homework. Need to start being consistent in my work.

AHHHH!!!

I hate liars. I hate ppl giving me empty promises. I always knew it's time to move on. But there will always be this small tiny part that always say no. I guess there is no point in hiding frm the veri beginning. Dexter was right. I should hv believed him and not hv so much hope. Yup. It's time to move on.

It's really sad when u find out things urself. Today i really did. I felt pissed and disappointed. Really felt like slamming the chair right into the PC. But hu cares. At least the truth is out. Gotta control myself frm screaming out tt 'B' word.

Had a great work out today. Swimming and gyming. Been veri productive these few days. Argh! But the muscles ache and the wrist pain still aren't going away. Gotta taper down soon when sch reopens. Jus abt 1 and half wks left. Gotta Push!

Turkey

Oh man! I wan a big fat turkey fer Christmas. So wan one. But it is too freakin ex.

Christmas is coming. So many things to buy. Gotta save money. Save money. Haix.

Blessings

A totally mixed emotions these few days. The past 2 days has been a veri blessed day. A fresh new start to a whole new wonderful journey.

Went down fer Juniors trg today. I believe things r changing and i do not really like the sight of it. Bad feeling. An instinct i guess. It's time to back out i guess. Should i continue to pursue my passion. I really don noe. I am veri confused and it's getting me moody.

Been gyming a lot b4 sch reopens. Gotta really make the decisions b4 sch starts. HOMEWORK! I gotta start soon. Better stop slacking i guess. Time to WAKE UP U NUA ****!!!

My last task b4 sch reopens is to visit u guys and maybe hv a chat wif all of u. I really miss u all. COntinue guiding me ya?[ I hope u all r reading it frm up dere] And to the SAFSA seniors tt rowed wif me, i noe all of u r gonna ORD. Take care and enjoy ur Uni life, don 4get the young one here. Hope we could all meet up soon. I noe this sounds wrong, but i kinda miss u guys.

$7.11

Rushed down to class chatlet today. After promising everyone that i would be down. It's been so long since i last saw my class.

It's really great to meet up with the class after so long. When i reached it was already evening and everyone was starting to prepare fer BBQ.

Helped atart the fire and didn't really cook much. The rest of the class was veri enthu in cooking fer all of us. Poor Kelly had stomach cramps and look real bad.

But not many stayed over which was veri disappointing. Onli 4 guys stayed over. Lol. Luckily we mamage to persuade Charis and Kelly to stayed over. So everything wasn't that bad.

We played Black Jack and i won $5. Guess it was their blessing. Then most of the guys went down fer 2nd round of BBQ. It was already near 2 AM when they came back.

I was really too shagged to eat wif them. Went to sleep b4 them. It was really great to meet up with the class. Even got a pretty weird class tee. Schools gonna start soon, guess we r all gonna meet up veri often soon.

The Dream

I slept really late last nite and had a memories of the past few months jus flash back. It's been more than a week since i walked the last jorney wif them.

The dream i had last nite showed me how much i really missed both of them. Reu and Chee, even thought i don noe u fer veri long. But in the short period of time tgt as teammates and buddies. I hv bonded deeply with the both of u.

I could still remember the times we go Mambo and the times we train tgt in the gym and rowing. Memories of times spent tgt jus keep flashing back...

To Reu,

thought i nv said these to u. But u r always like a big brother lookin after me. I could remember telling u how i was impressed and how u r a motivation to me when i first raced with SAFSA during the Singapore Dragonboat Festival. Meeting SAFSA in the finals and wishing i could be part of a strong team has always been my dreams. Frequently seeing u in gym and doing all the heavy weights sort of pushed me to train harder and hoping my team in my NYDB days, could grow strong and powerful jus like the SAFSA team under u. After stepping down frm NYDB, u brought me to SAFSA dragonboat where a whole new journey began for me. It was also the point where u took care of me and share ur experiences wif me. A BIG BROTHER, yes u r, U will always be in my heart NINJA!

I cant take candid pics of u anymore. Still remember u calling me 'Asshole' and 'Noob' fer doing so.

To Chee Wei Zheng,

I remember walking into first SAFSA training and i first saw u. U seem cold and not friendly. I was kinda scared and quiet too in the beginning. But after a few trainings and Reu introductions, things soon change. Attachment and preparation fer my first major race Regatta, makes us bond stronger. Mambo nites fer Chian farewell and many more and the singlet u got fer us frm Thailand will always stay in my memories. I still remember how u always battle with Allen and how he always make fun of u. But u always pushed hard fer trgs and at the same time motivating us to push harder. I will nv forget how u ask me to go for whatever i wan, like how u brought me into Nteam and always reminding me to study hard. U r like more than jus a close fren, u r like a buddy, a motivator and a guardian. A born leader and that is how i will always remember you.

Ur cheerful smile and ur 'WTH' i will nv forget.

I promised i will study hard and not disappoint both of u. I will train hard and not be nua like wad u said, Reu. I also learnt to treasure all those around me, esp my parents and close frenz. Like what everyone says, i will stay strong. Both of u will always be in our hearts and i now know dere r two of u lookin after not just me, but all of us. Rest in peace.

Reu and Chee, u will always be remembered.

In Life, every ending is jus a new Beginning...

Rest in peace...

Milkshake

Hvn't went clubbing fer veri long. Jus to amend wad i written on my last post. Wasn't blaming the councilors. They were nice to help us negotiate. And i thank them fer that. Was unhappy with the club and their rules. They were not flexible enough. Yeah.

Clubbing jus bring back memories. The days at Beat HomeClub and Mambo Nitez jus really makes me think about them. It's difficult to move on and forget all the gd times we spent tgt as a team. At least when i look back now or if i ever go clubbing again i would always remember the good times we all hv as a team.

Went MOS last nite with Zhong Lin, Jia Bing, Eric, Dexter, Ikhthia, Qing Yi, Bao Qi, Cheryl and Kai Ling. Veri crowded, guess ZoukOut didn't affect them much. Since the veri bad experience at MOS, didn't think it would make much gd experience. Indeed, I didn't really enjoy myself. Probably because wasn't really in the mood. Should hv gone to HomeClub instead. Guess Home and Zouk will always be my fav.

Everything seems fine till the last part. I would like to apologise if anything bad has happened or any cock ups. Cos i was bit high and tired, futhermore wasn't in much of a mood too. But hope all of u really enjoy urselves. It was a rare chance to be clubbing wif all of u. Yupz. =)

Took a cab back wif Dex. It was after a long time b4 i got to chat wif him. I really missed a lot of ppl, and hope to meet up wif everyone. Esp my class 0711 peeps and many more. Gotta find time and meet up wif them soon b4 trg resumes and b4 sch starts.

I believe i hv to make time out and spend it more wif my family. Hvn't been spending enuff tme wif them. Let's hope the choice i am gonna make is a correct one, i dont wan to be hurt badly again. A lot of events has happened this year. But i believe that they will always be by my side and blessing me.

Prom

Well, as expected and hardly a surprise. NYJC prom was not as wonderful as expected. The fun really came when u meet up wif old frenz and seeing all the formal dress ups. Guess this will last as a memory.

What happened after prom was jus stupid. Couldn't decide wad to do or where to go. Lol. Areana was bullshit. Cant believe they were so ineffiecient. They tried to uphold a gd image. Still doesn't noe hu they r messing wif. I guess tt the reason y we nv did went dere.

Well, a msg from Chian:
Dear friends of Wei Cheng,
My name is Kai Hong, a close friend and dragonboat team-mate of the late Wei Cheng. I am sure by now, you have heard of the tragic accident in Cambodia 3 weeks ago.
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(http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/314549/1/.html)I am honored to have had the opportunity to row with Wei Cheng in both SAFSA as well as the National Team. He was a dedicated paddler who worked hard to reach his goals. This eventually earned him a place in the National squad, despite his lack of prior experience in the sport.While participating actively in dragonboat, Wei Cheng dedicated much of his remaining time to giving tuition in order to contribute to the family's income. From a tender age, Wei Cheng and his brother, Wei You, have been raised single handedly by their mother, who is currently sourcing for a job with the help of relatives. Wei You recently re-took his 'O' Levels and is hoping to enter a local Polytechnic with his grades. He will be working part-time to bear some of the family's financial burden, which his brother had so painstakingly bourne these few years.I understand that most of you have probably attended the recent wake and have already given "white money" to the family. However, with the "season of giving" just around the corner, I'm trying to arrange for a second round of donations for the family, hoping to offer what aid we can to help mother and son tide over this extremely difficult time. No obligations here. If you feel that you have given as much help as you could, it is ok.After some discussions with Wei Cheng's cousin, we have jointly decided that cheques would be the most efficient method of facilitating these donations. Even if you are unable to write a cheque, I hope you can approach your parents and see if they would like to extend their help in this. My team-mates and I are organising this to provide an avenue for those who wish to extend their aid to the Chee family, but do not know where and how.You will have my assurance that all donations will be documented, and that the FULL proceeds will be handed to Mdm Chee. We are doing this for we believe that Wei Cheng, being the filial son that he was, would not want his brother and mother to have to bear the weight of his departure.For those who would want to donate a substantial amount to the family, please either reply to this message,contact me at "kee_heng@hotmail.com" or 96461072. Details on how to donate will be diclosed to you privately. I hope to be able to collect all donations during the 3rd week of this month, which is 17th to 22nd December 2007.I thank you for reading this, and hope we can all do our part to help the family.
Yours Sincerely,Chian Kai Hong

Hope all those hu read this would help. Really miss u guys.

Don keep, mus share

Went fer cox job today. Rush down frm sch gym wif Derek to realise we were veri early. I met Kelward at old SDBA.

It hurts really bad when ur close frenz leave u. It hurts too to see ur frenz sufferin in silence and not willing to say it out. I know he is hurt and he is in pain. But seeing it and not being able to do anything makes me feel worse.

Yes, i agree that it still hurts somethimes. Memories jus flows back, but we jus gotta move on. Time does not wait and reality sinks in too fast. I jus wan him and everyone to know that ur families and frenz r always dere fer u. Don keep all the pain to urselves, cos ppl around u will be hurt too.

I kinda agree wif Kai Hong and think that there are now 5 gurdian angels lookin after us. They will always live in our hearts and be by our sides forever and ever. After watching 'Enchanted' tonite, i agree that in every story no matter the twists, there will always be a happy ending.

I hope this quote can help calm those still hurt and sad.
'Although it's difficult today to see beyond the sorrow, May looking back in memory help comfort you tomorrow.'

Moving On

Walking into Bishan Gym is nv gonna be the same. It was where i first met him. It was we trained tgt. The place seemed to be filled with memories. I remembered how i was afraid of him in the gym. I did not know much about dragonboat. A noob then as he call. And that was how we became frenz.

He used to be doin heavy weights and showing off his pull ups at the pull up bar. It was onli in June when he intro me to SAFSA dragonboat, which made us closer. It was also how i met Wei Zheng. Bishan gym, swimming complex and the Park. PLaces we used to train tgt, enjoy ourselves and bonded tgt.

Stepping into the gym today, staring at the Lats machine, the pullup bar and the Smith machine brought sadness to me. I know i mus be strong, but those were the machines Reu always used and how he trained me with in the beginning and how i had spot him while he bench. The bench press machine reminded me of Chee, how he had pushed himself b4 gg to Bangkok. Training today after a long wk, i know i mus push hard and not be a noob like how Reu always call me and how Chee always reminded us to train hard and how he was always a role model.

I know now i mus start to change, move away frm my bad habits and study hard and train hard. The advices of Chee and Reu will always stay rooted in my heart. And both of u will always live in my heart.

...

It was really painful at the last moments. It was undescribable pain. Pain in the heart, pain everywhere. Walking the last journey with them was all i could do as a friend. All of u will always live in my heart. I will never forget all of u. In life, every ending has a new beginning. May u all rest in peace.

With love, YiHe

REST IN PEACE

Life is full of many unexpected happenings. Life is so unpredictable. The news of the Cambodia incident hit me so hard that i felt my heart sinking when i heard the news. My frens that i hv met not long ago. Laughed and joked tgt not long ago, had dinner and even gym tgt not long ago. Leaving me in an instant.

Reuben, Jeremy, Chee, Boon San and Stephen. 5 great rowers and gd people jus left this World in an instant. Yes. It is difficult to accept such a fact. Nobody wish this to happen.

Reuben was a great fren i met. He brought me to SAFSA dragonboat. Introducing me to many gd frenz and bring dragonboat to a whole new level fer me in a short time.

Chee brought me to national team and took care of me in SAFSA. He was a great fren that i will never forget and will be missed. He was always dere fer trg, guiding us and pushing us.

In Nteam, Boon San guided me. Even thought i did not know him much. But the short time we had, he guided me a lot. I remembered him telling me over lunch that it is impt to study. I will keep this in mind.

Jeremy and Stephen, thought i don noe u well. But the few times we chatted, really had a great time. U are always friendly and dere to help out.

It is hard to accept, difficult to write this post. But i noe i had to, I will miss all of u dearly and u will all always stay in my heart. The gathering of Team SAFSA soon was not the way i had imagined at all.

Gatherings?

Hoho... Got my new phone at last. Haha... Veri long since i last post. Now that the nteam has gone to Cambodia, dere is no more nteam trg. Haix... but the time trials is coming soon, gotta start trg.

Haha... Gonna hv a cohesion session wif my nydb guys after so long. Haha... Time passed so fast... A's has ended liao, wonder when will be the nxt time i row wif the SAFSA guys. Haha... Gotta meet up soon guys!!

Wheee

My phone is coming on thur!!! Called and complain to Singtel. At least they r fast and efficient in handling this stuff... was still worried when my phone would come. Needed a new phone badly.

Had coxing today... Great experience and had a really great time. It was so long since i had worked wif my teammates. Haha... One group of frenz gg off to Cambodia then another grp of frenz come back. Gonna miss the guys tt r gg off... But most importantly de most important is the gifts they bring back. Haha...

Really shagged today... Found the cap i need fer grad nite fer $18... Shall get it soon... Haha... Gotta train hard... Motivation is raging in me again!!

=(

I need a new phone badly. The phone i am using is torn into pieces. Haix... Wonder y Singtel is so low in effiency. The phone i ordered thru faxing has not even given me de reply. The sales consultant said would call me the nxt day but did not even call. Hope the person call soon or i am gonna complain.

Joined my juniors fer training today. Haha.. Really miss the crazy SAFSA trainings. A's is almost ending so many seniors and my teammates came back. Haha... Went out wif my teammates fer the first time after so long. Watched 'Bee Movie' wif Yvonne, Yi Yang, Carol and Kailing. Haha... Miss de old outings we used to hv.

Hope my phone comes soon...

SICK!

I am falling sick again... Can feel the heatiness in my body and the gg to hv sore throat feeling, it is as thought the sore throat would erupt any moment. This feeling totally sucks, jus when i started to enjoy training, another blow comes.

Haha... Rushed through gym in sch today b4 gg to work. Damn tiring, esp when u r feeling sick. Gotta perserve. Haha... Hu ask me to spend so much... Need to save up b4 can enjoy. Really cant wait fer A's to end, really miss my buddies and my nydb teammates. Cant wait to enjoy wif u guys man!

Haha... Kinda miss the SAFSA dragonboat trg too... I guess iam getting old... Miss so many things. Haix.. better force down a jug of water down my throat... sobz... Hope there is a miracle

Shagged out

Had training wif nteam fer the first time today. Used the heavy yellow boat fer trg. Haha... Guess i need to train up my muscular endurance soon... Can barely last the 4 sets of 9min row. But trg was tiring than normal training.

I had nv felt so gd fer so long... Think i am getting back my trg momentum.

Zouk Outing

I guess 2 wks of no clubbing has made many felt uneasy. Imagine ur hormones raging and u totally cant conrol urselves and hv to do 'it'. This is how we r like now, we cant control ourselves frm not gg to club. Haha... But at least it is a great bonding session.

Yesterday Zouk was really fucked up. It was like an unplanned meeting, where almost everyone frm our team and even nteam was present, even thought we did plan it b4 hand.

It was veri crowded and as expected by Allen a bad night, where u can c hormones raging and desperate men charging towards any ladies they could find. I remember some bastard pushing me away so that he could dance with the girl. It was really boring and meaningless to stay dere.

Luckily i met Kelward and we went over to Zouk hall, even thought the music was not really to my type, trance music. But at least it was kind of enjoyable dere. haha... Reuben wore a scarf with a comfortable material. But he 4got that when ppl get high his scarf will get him into loads of trouble.

The last part was enjoyable when u dance with ur frenz and totally ignoring wad's happening ard u. I guess Mambo Night is still the best. Maybe Darren and Justin made the right choice to go Home Club. But still i really enjoyed myself.

Work Work Work

I hv nv been so tired in my life. I really admire ppl that hv the energy to work and continue their gym routine after work. I find it veri tought to cope wif both.

Now that the dragonboat season is over, i am feeling the lose of momentum to train hard. Haix... How i miss those days when i was in NYDB, pushin myself so that i wont lose out to the others and be one of the top athletes in sch. After NYDB was SAFSA Dragonboat, where i was brought to a new lvl of trg.

Haix... I need a motivation. I better find one soon.

Boredom once more

Regatta is over and this marks the end of the season for dragonboat. It also marks the end of my short but an amazing journey with SAFSA dragonboat. I am sure got enjoy the times we hv trg hard tgt and at the same time enjoyin ourselves during those team bonding sessions we hv.

Regatta was really an eye opener fer me. With numerous crash or capsize happening during the race. Even thought team SAFSA didn't really perform up to the standard we should. But i really enjoy myself. Like the saying " It is not the results, but the process that really rewarding." I gotta agree with it.

After trg with SAFSA Dragonboat, not onli did i gain more knowledge and experience about dragonboat, i also met a lot of people doing the same sport. It was indeed a short but meaningful experience with Team SAFSA.

I am really gonna miss u guys and miss those enjoyable trg we hv tgt and let's hope our friendship do not stop here. Haha... We should hv a farewell soon, even thought it maybe sad, but let's enjoy ourselves as a team fer one last time.

MarchE

Had a last outing tgt wif the rest of the guys from team SAFSA Dragonboat... Tmr is the race, let's hope we put in our best and show other teams what we r made of.

Gotta rest soon... Damn shagged, even thought all i did today was eating and shopping. Haha...

Say Goodbye

This wkend is River Regatta, last race before with Team SAFSA b4 we all go our separate ways. It is really weird, i faced the same feeling during the A div June race, where i bid farewell to my NYDB team.

I nv expect myself to get to clique so well wif the guys in Team SAFSA, i still remember when i first joined the team and did nt noe any of them. I was like so quiet and did not dare to speak out to anyone. Did trg as i was told and rowed wif them fer the 1st time in Master's Series. Tt was the stepping stone fer me to noe them better.

But ater tt came the bad news of Team SAFSA NSF joining the commandos team. But those were the proccess tt i went thru in SAFSA dragonboat, it did not hinder me from bonding wif the guys in the team.

I learn from both my experience in NYDB and SAFSA DB tt to bond well wif the team, u mus always take the first step to noe the ppl in the team better. My journey thru NYDB was not as smooth, it took me more than half yr b4 i got to noe the team well and got the whole team bonded tgt. But when the sweetest part came, the sad ending soon came into the story and it was time fer us to say gdbye to each other and NYDB.

I really agree wif wad Chee say, it is always sad to say gdbye. Jus when the team gets tgt and train hard fer River Regatta ( even got night trg somemore), after this wkend it maybe hard fer us to meet again. I m really gonna miss this great grp of wonderful guys.

To the guys in SAFSA dragonboat, Chee, Chian, Darren, Justin, Allen, Chun How, Leonard, Kelvin, Sherwyn and Reuben, i wish u all the best in whatever u all do and hope we can remain in contact even if we r not a team anymore. Let's not 4get the night trg deal tt we still hv and let's give our best fer this wkend's race.

Internet

My internet is screwed up... DOn noe wtf is wrong wif it... Auto disconnect... Now i cant even use Live Messanger or play battleship in peace...

My finger wound does not seems to look gd... Hope it heals by this wk... Last wk left to Regatta... Really hope that all the race sets and all the effort put in by everyone can be seen this wkend... Today race sets show others what Safsa is made of...

Guys Night out!

Yesterday night was not as gd as i tot... Zouk is still the best... Reu brought us to Plush... The place was great, music and the ambiance is veri nice, but it jus lack de crowd. Allen was complaining abt it... But he got an owning streak in pool.

Luckily drinks at plus was cheap... So Kelward, Reu, Jus and me stayed on to drink at Plush b4 heading down to zouk... De music was not as gd as expected fer the nite... Quite a boring nite...

But Phuture was not crowded as how it usually was, which was great, could c some fat ass grinding the wall... WTF!! Haha.. But really had a gd chill out wif de guys.

Some pics of us:

OverLoad?!

Training is a killer... I am so shagged that the onli thing that interest me is to go home and sleep...

Onli 2 wks left... gotta train hard... 1 wk to push and i believe i can do it... Bring back da Old Me!!!

Masters Series.

Had Master's Series Competition today... I couldn't believe it... We onli had 12 rowers... While other teams had all their rowers and getting ready to kick some ass...

What was worse is that no one in the team seems to look worried... everyone looks so calm, with onli a 'wth', 'omg' and 'how?' coming from some ppl...

Nobody really bothered much... Onli Adrian going around borrowing ppl... So fer 1st heat.. We had 14 rowers on the boat... And this didn't stop us... We showed them what SAFSA was made of and got 1st in the heats with 14 rowers!

In te semis... We got more rowers, but because there were onli 12 of us... we didn't do as gd but managed to squeeze into minor finals... And we gave it all on the last set and did our best with no regrets...

It was really like the movie 300, we had onli 12 gd rowers against other teams with 20 rowers... But we still give our all and this shows that we can do it...

Onli 2 wks to Regatta... It is gonna be last race fer most of us... Guys, Let's push and show ppl wad we r made of... Let's light up the flame that has been extinguished fer most of us... Let's bring back the burning desires that u all once had... I believe that we can do better than this...

Rushed

Argh! Fri cant go trg... thx to some promise i made to help my classmates fer PW... Hope it is worth it and really wish they appreciate it...

Rushed down to gym today to do some workout b4 gg to help NYDB... Didn't realise coxing was so tiring... Totally shagged now...

I hope i can bring coxing to a nxt lvl... Got a job to teach Dragonboat at last... Really hope it works out ... So excited to see that the hard work has paid off...

Injuries

I hate injuries... Got some weird pain on my left shoulder... Damn sianx... Masters this wkend... Hope the pain goes off soon....

At the moment jus gotta train hard and maintain...

Bored and Tireness!!!

Training everyday is really a killer... I can really feel my body pushing to the max... But the feeling of training hard is really shiok...

I am so glad that my coxing skills hv improved... Went to help out wif training fer NYDB today at SDBA... I jus gotta work on my commands... I am glad that my help was appreciated...

I can really tell that some of the juniors want to do well badly... They r giving their best but yet they do not understand y the boat is not improving... Yes.. I agree 3 days of continuous rowing is tiring... But it does not affect ur trg....

Like my team, they suffer frm the same problem... Most come fer trg without a purpose... They do not noe y they come fer trg... They jus train fer the sake of training... While those that hv the desire... Would push themselves to the limits and give it their best...

What the juniors' team lack is someone to correct their stroke... My team were veri aware of our strokes and constently correcting each other's strokes... Which was something the juniors r lacking... I c some juniors rowing hard but inefficient and they jus don understand y... I think it is time fer them to hv some stroke reflection...

The pacing wif SP and mountbatten was quite horrible... We could hv beaten SP... But it doesn't matter... I believe my juniors hv the standards to bring NYDB to a whole new level... they jus need a bit more time and hv a bit more hunger and desire fer it...

Met up wif my best buddy at last... Po Han came over today... Let's hope tmr is less tiring...

Passion

Rowing was horrible esp when u r rowing negative... What makes it worse is who is beside u... Argh! Had a terrible experience... Hope things would get better soon...

What is dragonboat... It is jus a team sport, unlike canoing or kayaking... Dragonboat requires a lot of teamwork...

It requires the people rowing in the boat to work together, not jus training hard... but bear the passion of dragonboating... But as time progress, people will start to lose the passion and this will start pulling the person away from the team, then from the sport...

I recalled seeing ppl joining dragonboat fer various reasons... Esp after coming to Safsa(NSF)... But within all these reasons... I see a passion in them wanting to row their best... Hving the hunger and desire to win... But this desire and hunger was soon broken down... Due to various events that soon occured...

When the team starts lsoing their fire... It is like seeing the downfall for a team... I recalled being with my team in NYJC... My beloved guys team that i will nv forget... The passion fer dragonboat that builds up in us from nth... It brought the sport to a totally different level... Had to thank Ah Hee fer being such a wonderful coach!!

But what prevented us from succeeding was that time was short and some that had no passion in the sport prevented it... But i do not balme them... It's not easy to get everybody to love something... Like how hard it is fer everybody to eat the same food... people hv their preferences... But a team will still succeed even if not everybody has passion but hv a reason to push themselves to do well fer the gd of the team...

To my NYJC teammates... Study hard guys, the A's is fer u to own, Remember the code[F*** it!] And to the Safsa(NSF), thx fer the wonderful moments i hv wif u guys... Don lose the passion fer dragonboat, bring it back guys! Onli 3 wks left to Regaratta... Let's end the journey of dragonboating in ur NS days tgt with a gd and happy ending... Let's give it our best and hv no regrets... Xiao Di here is wif all of u all the way... Sorry Leonard and guys fer being weird today... i am really not feeling myself today...

The Long Night

Sometimes studying too much can drive ppl to do crazy stuff... Like last nite for example... At Jana's house... We filmed 4 videos of 'Documentry about Raymond' with Raymond acting as though he is beast living in the jungle... Shall upload it to Youtube soon...

Went Mambo nite with the Safsa guys... It was supposed to be a farewell fer Chian who is leaving fer India soon... Got ps-ed by Reuben cos he couldn't finish his project... Argh! Wanted him to sign me in free.. Haha...

In the end, Leonard, Chian, Allen, Wei Zheng and me went... It was really a crazyy nite.. Now i understand the meaning of Phuture... Lol...

Totally Shagged out... Barely caught any sleep after reaching home... Woke up at 9 so that i could meet Jia Jia and Jana fer breakfast...

It was really a long day... totally shagged myself... Last day of fun... Doomsday tmr... Man! Wish it was nv here... but still i gotta face what i gotta face tmr... I know i can do it!!!

Shake ur butt HARD!!

Did a super weird dance fer Tilda's Birthday today. Hoho... It looks embarrassing esp when it is done in public... Actually i think as the bday girl she felt worse... Haha...

Well... talk to Jia, Nana and Gland... And it is back to the same topic bout life again... I really agree wif Jia y do ppl hv to be so harsh on Life and y do we hv to talk bout Life so fast?

Wad choice do we hv... Aftr leaving the pure and innocent age of sec sch and coming to the JC... I grown up so much in my thinking... I do not look wad is b4 me anymore... Sch has taught that i hv to look further or face de consequences...

I really regretted not come to my senses earlier... If onli i hv been thinking and matured more last yr... wouldn't hv suffered so much. But it is true reality is cruel... If u don keep up wif the fast pace of life... Life is gonna OWN u and they r gonna charge so fast u cant catch up... Jus like dragonboat race... U gotta train veri hard mentally and prepare fer any upcoming race both physically and mentally...

From dragonboat... my beloved passion... I hv learn that to be the best... u not onli gotta train hard physically but mentally too... I believe that the solution to such a cruel truth is to jus keep up wif the fast pace or life... Or bite on to its tail and nv let go...

Bored...

The exams are over and now i am jus plain bored... while the others r either rushing fer A's or PW... I practically hv nth to do... At least i am able to give nearly 100% focus fer dragonboat and to think of how to set up my website....

The problem with being unattached is that u hv no purpose to do anything... Like how i am feeling now... When i hv nth to do... i really hv nth to do... U r jus a single person tryin to find something to do... Looks weird to shop alone and u jus wanna get away from books... So the best thing to do is to SLEEP!!! Haha... at least i am tryin to keep myself occupied...

Maybe this is a sign fer me to meet up with old buddies or get a job... haix... Life's is really tough as u grow older... Lookin at the O's students... They r still a bit immature compared to us... I really agree with Gland on this... They r jus lookin at wad is at sight but not thinking further... Fer us... We gotta think about our future, how is our lives gonna be like and this really pushes u to the limits...

Life's tough i gotta admit... but this is wad everyone has to go thru and i believe i can do it... Had a great chat with my best teammate and pal, James today. Really makes me think... R we wasting our life away, I believe i didn't waste any this yr(esp the 2nd half) and i really hope this fri i would do well, as i given my best effort and mug real hard fer th promos... But something James said struck me... It is fer the person to judge fer himself whether wad he doin is right or wrong, we may hv our opinions, but it may not be wad the others r thinking... I really hope tt my teammates that r not doing well, really work hard fer this last 20 days, i believe u all can do well fer A's!! Jia you, Guys!!!

Haha... I am still pissed with James... I guess ur 7pm prediction is wrong... Maybe we r jus thinking too much.. Haha...

Numb...

It is try to enjoy at last... Taking time off the books fer a while... Haha... Had trg with the Safsa guys today b4 going shopping fer some clothings...

Went to celebrate Nana's birthday... She really ordered a lot of food and had loads of drinks.. Really feeding me fat... Had a really great time seeing them do crazy stuff. Later, i went to meet Reu, Justin and Darren to go to HOME to club.

The music dere was not bad... Had a really fun time... The best thing was looking at Darren dance on stage... haha... Really tired out my legs tt it aches without even walking... Clubbing really was a great leg workout... Barely could keep my eyes open when i went home...

Ending

WooHoo!!! The exams ended at last... HAd the last paper Phy today.. It was reasonably okay except fer the data analysis qn. Now everyone noes why tsunami killed so many ppl. Always remind urself u will need a tsunami alarm. Haha...

Had trg with juniors, Derrick, Brandon, Solomon and Zheng Hui. Wootz!! Really feel like an old man tryin to run after so long. Really tired my self totally. It was really energy draining... Haha... But it was great to be back in the gym...

Had lunch at j8 and plan fer tmr... Hehe... So packed tmr... Hope i can survive thru all activites and not be a zombie on Sat... Wahaha... Went to the lib and met Yuai and Nicholas... Felt really xtra dere... except to suan everyone... Haha... Then saw those bunch of F*** RI boys.. really fume me seeing them...

Let's hope i survive trg tmr... Time fer some photos of the Library gang...

Yuai and Christine

As the end aprroaches

Had a tough time yesterday, phy paper in the morning plus mugging of phy in the afternoon. Total killer... So shagged till i drop 'dead' after i bath till 9 this morning.

No seats in the lib today, so went to Yuai's country club to study. Had to squeezed 7 guys in the car. Haha... the sight of 3 boys being squeezed in the car boot was so farni!! The environment was great... Really did some productive studyin... Though i ended up chatting with the girls after all the guys left.

The ride back was scary... the Yuai's mom was really 'anti-guys'... Eeks!! Almost died, luckily i was polite and kept as quiet as possible. Haha... But had a great time. Thx girls! Haha... Shall upload de photo of the lib Buddies i took yesterday. Poor Raymond is sick... Take care Man!!

Rayond, Me and Gland

Weird Party...

Today is such a weird day. After mugging in the lib as always, i was gg home. When i suddenly met an old fren, Wilson. He asked me if i wanted to go to Toon Hwee's birthday. Haha... i was really shocked, but tagged along. Had a hardcore mugging day. In the end, i had surrendered and got the 'Holy Purple Phy Book' Haha... really cost a lot.

It was like going back to the past. I had nv had a gathering with my old sec sch pals fer ages. Really missed them and the fun times we had tgt. B4 that i was looking at the sec4 cat high boys and i was telling myself how i was like them. Couldn't believe i had a gathering after that. Haha...

Well, all of us have matured, but we stil looked the same. It was chattin, more abt our jc life and wad we r gonna do after we graduate and abt NS. Really had an enjoyable time. Well gd things don last. Really cant wait fer the chalet. Shall upload some photos we took the nxt round. Jia you fer A's guys!

Bishan Library

Woke up today with a heavy head. Talk myself out of working out. Any way since it is the exam wk, shall jus not work out fer today. Argh! I am such a lazy pig!

Rushed off to the Bishan Library to study. Nth much today, had a nice chat with the guys in the lib, esp Raymond and Gland. Did quite a fair bt fer phy, still got long way to go. Well, learnt quite a lot today.

Saw the cat high boys gathering in the lib b4 i left. Really make me think back and c myself in my sec 4 days, where iwas still wearing the green shorts. Haha... How i missed those days, chatting and hving a gd time with my frenz. Well, now i am almost a JC student. JC man, life is stressful in JC, but it is a step to a new chapter of my life.

Such a boring day, shall read my phy notes and do some workout b4 i sleep.

The Battle Begins...

Well, after a wk through the promos that has been tormenting my poor soul, i decided to start this blog.

Let's hope this is a good way to allow me to destress. After reading Dexter's meaningful blog, guess now is the right time to get one.

The promos has started on Mon, with GP and its killer AQ question. Barely wrote more than the page the question was on, the compre was totally a killer. Had a tough time tryin to paraphrase, let's hope i do well for the rest of the componenets and pass my GP. MAths was better, Chem paper 3 was jus as bad as GP, but paper 2 was more of a moral booster. Econs today was great, could understand clearly wad i was writing. Don think econs will let me down. Now it is left with Phy and the Chem MCQ.

While studying in Bishan Library today, i look at all the sec 4 students mugging and enjoying themselves with their friends. I began to think about my sec 4 days and how i was like them. Then i think back about last yr and how i wasted last yr not putting enough effort in my studies. Well, the path was chosen by me and wad more regrets can i hv. Was really shagged, been studying from 12 to 8, without any break after my econs paper end. Phew! Manage to survive.

Exams is jus like a battle, u gotta mug hard then u enter the exam hall with ur heart racing, prayin that the paper would not be a killer. Then after u start doing the paper, drain every ounce of ur brain cell and try to complete the paper with ur 120% effort and at the end of it, try not to think about it. Before entering the after battle phase, where the results will be announced. This is the 2nd killer. This is where u know how much effort u put in has come out. For those that dont mug, it is all about luck.

Well, half my battle is gone, and i am still alive, let's hope my ultimate weakness phy would be conquered by me. I will WIN this battle, no matter what it costs me. The inner flame within me is flaring up, i will push myself to the limits.

Let's hope there is still some of me left behind after the battle, so that i can really relaxed and enjoy myuself for once.