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I am so tired. Getting this weird feeling in my stomach. Oh well. Not really bothered by it. Jus feels a bit weird.

I really gotta make some time meet up wif PH this wk and study wif him. Do some catching up wif him. Really wish i could sit at StarBucks, enjoy the coffee and maybe some snacks. Haix. But gotta add in the mugging. ONli bout 90 days or so left. Motivation is raging.

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Weekend was productive. Manage to do some productive revision. Gotta start my final sprints for the prelims. Plan hard for revision and make sure i am well prepared.

Found a good place to study. Furthermore, it has bus for me to go home. I guess iam gonna study late at novena. Gd atmosphere to study in. Back to studyin once more, no time to loss.

Serious

Sleeping for 3 hours is definitely not enough if you have one full day ahead. Saving money and trying to cut down on food u crave olso doesn't work, esp when u hv so little sleep.

Yup. Why so serious? Really gotta applaud that joker act was the best in this Batman movie 'Dark Night'. He was able to show a different type of joker that will stay rooted in the viewer's minds for many days. I will really give him 4.5 out of 5 for his brillant act.

Learnt something new today. Think i am beginning to understand and know things more after clearing my doubts. Mr Tong's Speedboat vs Cruise Ship really let me think quite a bit. Thought i hvn't gotten an answer, it brought me a new view to the whole picture. I am glad i asked.

Really hope the answer dawn upon me soon. Really need a haircut, hair is in a mess. Friday meet the parents, veri sian. And so many things i need, ipod touch and a new wallet, i really need a miracle or a gd fairy godma. Gotta go focus on my study. My life till A's will jus be mug, train, sleep and eat. Maybe could squeeze in some time for 1 or 2 movies and maybe some shop ard tt's all. Other than tt, it is MUG MUG MUG! Cos i am serious!

'There is no place like home.'

'There is no place like home.'

Familiar phrase. Gotta agree wif the phrase. No place like home. I am beginning to learn how to appreciate it.

Ok. Tt's jus something random. Sometimes i am jus so confused and don noe wad i am thinking of. Like now, i am really confused. Took some time off to be alone. Jus totally alone. ( i am serious) And i guess it's not tt bad, like how my mom mentioned it. At least u don hv to wait and jus do whatever u wan to do. Only person answerin to is jus yourself.

I think this time off alone thingy is gd. Maybe shall include it sometime in every month. Now i gotta freshen up and back to the books. Argh! Cant wait fer A's to end. I need a break.

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This is a BAD week. Very bad. So many stupid things happened. Thank God this wk has ended. Nth beats stayin at home.

Oh well, stayin at home gives me the opportunity to catch up on my work. Since all the suay-ness for this wk has ended, hope the gd luck starts pourin in nxt wk.

Argh! They didn't approve my application. Luckily, the other one has been approved. Oh well, this gives me a reason to spend less. I guess i should. I need a new wallet. Better look out for one soon... Back to work.

Ninja!

Work is piling up and it feels as thought no matter how much time i hv is also not enough. I am hving one of those feelings where everything ard me is jus so empty. The emptiness in me makes me feel as thought everything ard me seems unfair and giving me fatigue.

Met Jia Bin fer tuition jus now. He was nice to give me tuition for maths and chem every wk. At least now, i hv someone to guide me thru my maths and wont get stuck for hours not knowing what to do.

I am so gonna get Cedric for what he did to me in gym today. Haha. Met some SA girl that used to take bus from same bus stop as me everyday. Too bad, she graduated and she came gym today. Went up to ask her if she know my friend. And tt spark off Cedric and his big mouth! He is gonna get it from me. Lol.

Read a small portion of a book. I come to realise that ' Successful people are not talented.It is what drives me to the success.' Well, I got my license, so success here i come. Like a secret ninja, i am in trg!

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I feel so tired and it is jus the beginning of the wk. Everything seems so draggy. I feel so shag and i can barely take a break.

Gotta be strong, gotta be strong. 6 weeks left. Deadlines seem to get closer and i better speed up. More focused now, gym and study.

I need to train hard and study hard. Mr Tong's lesson today was great. Nth more to say, gtg pack up and catch some sleep. Luckily tmr is a short day.

Cant seem to stop getting the song by Timbaland and Ne Yo out of my head. Lol

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It's been quite a disastrous day.

First i went down to cox fer the juniors after a long time been away from dragonboating. Then i gotta realise that the currents today were exceptionally strong.

It really reminded me of the days where Reu was ard and he would somehow go out there and face the danger. Face his fears and emerge out as a brave warrior that had conquered his fear. Unlike him, i was a bit coward.

I went out there, did my best, at alas my worst fear came true. The last race, which i don understand how they had made it to the Tai Finals, i crashed and cause the DQ. The opponent boat had already eaten to my lane before the race even started, to avoid i sorta overturned the boat and ate to the first lane, before cutting back to my lane like some Initial D movie.

What made things worse was the stupid officials had to criticise me. The feelings really sucks. I agree i shopuld get a coxing cert. and part of the incident was my fault. I am a no experience coxer. I learnt my coxing from the Nteam and SAFSA mates, Ah Hee and my brilliant frens, Reu and Chee. I practised it every trg and every opportunity. I even trained other teams and u claim i am of no standards. Fucking officals have no brains at all. If it wasn't for the exams, i would still be training hard in nteam and SAFSA or Mountbatten.

Sometimes it sucks, but I always believe that what goes around comes around. Gotta be the change that you want to see in people, even if it sucks. I think I'll just sleep.

Sales are still going on. I still need my boxes from Zara and maybe could grab some stuff for topman. Sianx. I am suppose to save money and get my haircut nxt wk.

I need a miracle.

Tired!!

I am so tired. Tired from my studies, tired from all the owrkouts and esp. tired from thinking so much. So tired that i slog in bed today till bout 11.

Forced myself to go fer a jog before gg out to meet the guys. Watched 'HellBoy 2' today. Wasn't veri impressed with the movie thought. Felt like it was combination of LOTR, Jay Chou's Golden Armour and bit of Narnia and Matrix. Lol. Every movie produced nowadays all seem to look the same. Not impressive at all. As thought the movies are jus created with the same ideas and concepts, but with different characters onli.

Guess it is not worth my money watching these movies. Better use the time to study instead. I need to make myself more productive tmr. Finding more bout the economies in the 1990s has took quite some time. I need to start mugging soon..

Education?

Mid yrs ended and jus as i tot i am gonna get a well derserved break, messages flooded de phone. Homeworks and a lot more work are already prepared. J2 is tiring, i cant even take much break after my exams. Even thought the journey is tough, i believe there are 'angels' ard me lookin after me, giving me gd advices over the last few days.

It started on my gp lecture day. The topic was education. I was already veri sian wif my new time- table and all the work that i hv to complete jus 2 days after exams. The lecture on education was not jus on the topic education, it had the elements of reality in it. It made me think real hard. A question was asked "How would you like to be remembered when u die?" and another was "Do you think you will feel u hv succeeded if u died tmr?" One thing came to mine, the Dragonboat Tragedy. I realised that i hv succeeded in a way or another if i really had to die tmr, at least i hv spent a lot more times wif family and friends compared to how i was like previously. I hv learnt to treasure everything i hv and value everything ard me. I believe i hv reach quite a few check points on my journey thru life. Like wad they say, a successful journey really depends on whether we reach the final destination we wanted to get to in the first place. It has taught me to fight harder for my goals and my goals are wad i really love, wad i really want. Mid yrs result will not be tt gd i noe it fer myself. It is a failure, as i noe i did not put in the hard work and effort that i should hv. The lecturer said "Failure can refine you. Don't let it define you." I hv now found the meaning and the reason to study hard for prelims. With them in mind, i am a step closer towards both my short and long term goals.

I went for J1's dragonboat trg, which is my 'grand- juniors'. Lol. Met a few Nteam mates, laughing at my fair skin. At least my muscles are still there. Haha. Somehow juniors all don dare to talk to me. Talked to CJ and i am glad he chose to do what he likes and not forcing himself to do things he don like. I believe if u play to your natural strength, stick to the stuff you love, more and more will follow. He also said the same to me. It's great meeting them. The more reason y i hv avoided Kallang. Meeting Ah Hee and all the nteam mates, makes it difficult for me to let go of dragonboating. Like what Kingley say" Study hard! U can always dragonboat after ur exams." I cant wait for the day my A's end and i can go back and train with them. And even help Ah Hee wif the junior's trg.

Today i met Cedric, had lunch wif him. HE motivated me and ask me to find the meaning for everything i do. He said that once u find the meaning of things u wanna do, the things jus become easier and easier and u will realise it is never boring to do them. U will enjoy wadever you are doing and overcome them easily with no fear at all. I tot hard and i hv learnt a great deal frm him today. Haha. Got my printer at last and decided to blog out this meaningful entry so that i wont forget it. Gotta go bath and complete my work.