Inspiration

It suddenly struck me while i was gyming half way. It really show how dragonboat was in my life. I agree that it has indeed made an impact in my life, gaining lots of friends and acquaintance along the way. It is also the sport that spur up the competitiveness in me and also build up a strong mental strength.

I could remember how weak and new to the sport. Yes, i would agree if anyone comes up and tell me now that dragonboat is a team sport. Precisely, because it is a team sport. It makes things even more competitive. It either strengthen you or break you. Firstly, u hv to compete wif all ur teammates. Or u hv to train hard to make sure u do not lose out to them. Secondly, u got to train hard as a team to compete wif other teams. Thirdly, u hv to compete wif fatigue and time, so that u r able to do all ur work. The level of competition in this sport is practically everything and anything. And it is this, tt brought me to wad and hu i am now. I am not gg to let myself down, because i believe in wad Cedric says. U mus love wad u do, no matter how stress or tough, if u wan ot badly, u can do it.

Met a new fren at gym today. And coincidentally, he's Justin's gd fren. Wad a small world. Begin to enjoy training at Bishan gym and meeting all the new frenz. I am really motivated.

I HaTe Phy

I hate sch. Jus so sick of it. I feel that i am getting nothing out of all the trg. Had 2 tests today and it totally drained my brain juice. And as expected, i FAILED my physics test. Sianx. I really need to mug harder now.

Went to gym today and met Justin after such a long time. He looks different. Shagged and not as tough looking as before. He said he is injured, probably, i really miss the old confident and self motivated him. He told me nteam time trial will be nxt month and i really hope to c him dere, recovered and back to his old self. Seeing him reminds me of Reu.

I really think i should consider hard abt joining nteam. There is no harm going fer the time trial. But commitment in the team is another question. Mom keeps reminding me bout A's this yr and everyone else too. I really need an enlightenment and an answer. I guess i am really nua now without you acting as a motivating role model.

Tests

Argh! Chem test tmr. And i look at the T.Y.S. It is so demoralising. I really gotta start doin serious and focused mugging. Gotta stop nua-ing and start to be focus. I missed my holidays. Ack!

Jus So Random

I guess things are very unpredictable. U nv know what is gonna happen. U nv know whether the nxt step or the nxt move u take is the right one or not. It's jus disheartening to see things that u nv expect urself to find out and yet u find out abt it. I am beginning to think that no matter how i try to improve or change, the way things r meant to be, will stay the same and there is no use rushin into anything. I really need an enlightenment.

Gym today at Bishan. Met Daniel and Cedric. Sorta rush thru my workout, time is really a major factor when sch reopens and this really sucks! But i am enjoying the busy schedule and the stress, even though i keep saying i hate it. It is actually keeping me busy and not think so much. It was productive studying with Cedric, he jus keeps asking to study and wont talk to you. And just by looking at him study really motivates you to study too. I think i must really study with him more often.

I think i really need to take one step at a time. The way i am progressing now is quite productive. I guess Cedric advice maybe right, i should really plan my time well and focus on my studies. I believe i can do it. I think there is no point in rushing into anything now. Jus gotta do what is the most impt now and leave those not so impt stuff aside first. Argh. I need a break! This emoing is killing me. Haha.

Surprise

Visit Reu's parents today. Went over to hand a medal that was given to the nteam during the Standard Charted Marathon. His mom say he loved to collect medals and we went to see his room that we always play his ps3 and even watch anime in. Thought the incident has passed fer so long and he has left us fer so long. But when we went to his house today, really brought back a lot of memories. I really miss the days where we played his ps3 while we wait fer him to cut our hair.Those times will always stay deep in my memories.

At Reu's House

Rush down to Yvonne's house after that. Kai Shuo almost spoil the whole surprise by calling her. Nevertheless, we still manage to surprise her. Got quite a shocked when she suddenly cried. Haha. Overall, guess the surprise party really turned out fine. The food was also veri nice. Sang a lot of Bday songs and the cake was veri delicious. It mus be a really memorable day fer her. Really wish my Bday would be like this.

farewell

Had dinner with James, Kai Shuo, Rudi and Teng Ming today at an indo restaurant at Lucky Plaza today. It was like a gathering before James is gonna enlist this Fri. Haha. Really sux. Met up in sch, before heading down to Lucky Plaza. TOday sch had CCA Bazaar, met Yvonne and a few other teammates. Yi Yang also enlisting tmr. Poor Yvonne, kena builled cos we kept acting don noe wad is so special bout Sat.

Really had a great time with James and the rest. Went to shop ard b4 heading to Centre Point Mac fer dessert. Haha. And we discussed bout my bday. lol. Sure gonna miss him. Haha. But it's onli 2 to 3 wks b4 i c him again. Take care man!

Sucks!!!

Today is a BAD day. Totally crazy. Insane to be exact. 5 lectures, 2 tutorials and 1 practical. It is a mind draining day. Before the last lesson even started, the whole class was dragging their feet like mindless zombies to the phy lab. The onli survival of the whole thing was our phy teacher. HE was like the main character in I AM LEGEND, tryin to save the 'World'.

As expected, i could predict how things r turning out to be in NYJC. Luckily i escaped the grasp of being an athlete in the sch tt will nv be recognised. So much fer training beyond the limits fer the sch. I guess one day, all sports athletes will disappear and all tt is left will jus be another Arts sch. Haix. Really let's ppl think where the effort is gg.

I really need a NEW time table. One with more breaks or early dissmal.

Down

Really had no mood doing homework these few days. Totally sick of this ineffiecient work rate. Furthermore, i am losing de motivation once more. Feel like a weakling.

Talking to her really makes me both sad and angry. But it's been over so long. Clearly, she has really moved on. Telling me to do it too. It looks so easy and seeing her moving on gives me mixed feelings. But it looks so difficult fer me. I hv more things bothering me both mentally and physically. I really hope tt the one appearing in my dreams would feel the same too. Then maybe fer once, i can believe in wad she say.

I need to WAKE UP.

Meaningful

Sch ended early today. Head down to gym at Bishan. Been training and mugging hard, back to the old style. The question is back fer me to ponder. Should i continue rowing or not? But after all the little chat today, i am really unsure.

"So how long hv u rowed?"

"Bout 3 yrs?"

"Not tired of it?"

"..."

Been chatting with Daniel today. He went to gym at the same time as me. The red lines r wad he said. It really makes me think. This yr is really tough, with all the exams and all the lessons ending veri late. But this does not hinder me from continuing my passion. I hv given up a lot of things fer this passion and i am not willing to give up now. But the promises and resolutions i hv made this yr. Ib elieve i really gotta think twice. Haix. I really gotta think thru it.

Training has been productive and studyin too. But tireness is surfacing and it is really killing me. Really gotta rest well this wkend. I really agree with wad Daniel said today.

"It is all about wad u really want. If u dont know wad u wan, then u got to do something tt u think is realistic to u in the future."
"It's not about what other people can think or do. It's all about what u can do."

I am really glad to hv heard all these from him. Really been great chatting with him. The first wk of this new year has been great. I believe that the rest of the year will be a great one too.

SchooL

Yupz. Sch has started and the work r stacking. Busy, busy and many more busy. Teachers r scaring and threatening us, using all sorts of method jus to make us study. Haha. Gotta be a new person this year. Consisent in my work. Cant write much. Gotta go do all my homework. Need a break soon. Argh! Back to the boring life once more.

New Year

Yes. The New Year has arrived. It also marks the end of the holidays and the start of a new school term. Sigh! Piles of homework all not done. Start of another torturous moments.

Went fer countdown wif my best buddy, Victor. Planned to go fer countdown at homeclub, but changed our minds and decided to head down to MoS. Haha. They gave us some weird party accessories. It wasn't very crowded when we first reached. But soon it became veri crowded when the time approaches new year.

Freakin pack and it was totally insane. But the crowd also spur up the mood fer the countdown, esp when the countdown start from the last minute. The music at MoS was also quite gd tt day. Thought it was a veri ex entrance, but it was the first time i enjoy my time at MoS. Hadn't had much gd experience dere. But fer me, i still think Zouk is the best, esp Mambo Nights. Haha. Really missed the times.

After that, we decided to leave early, took last train back to Bishan. And Vic head down to my house fer stayover, where we drink and chat.

Year 2007, a veri eventful and a year full of emotional memories. The year which i gain many things in Life, also a year which i lost many things in Life. It is a year that i will never forget. Coming back from a setback and able to pull through. A year of breakthrough fer myself in the passion that i have. It has really been a nawesome year. Really wish that year 2008, a crucial year, will not not be a better, but another great and awesome year.

Wishing everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR.