Burning from the fatigue of studying late and squeezing my brain juice trying to ans the fuckin qn of the mid yrs exam papers. I feel like shit. Hvn't been gymin, could feel myself shrinking. Maths paper was pretty cool, phy and chem totally sux. Now i hv to spend my wkends doin my econs.
Met Cedric and Daniel on fri nite. Been long time since i seen them and Cedirc once again appeared wif something funny. Haha. It's pretty awesome to meet time. Like what he says " Bishan gym has a home feeling". I gotta agree, it's the place where many things has happened, a place that has truly changed me.
I guess after toking to them and seeing Nigel aka The Hulk back, i am really motivated to mug. They are really truly motivations like how Reu was a motivation. I cant wait fer mid yrs to end. The exams are really burning me out. Gotta go back ta mugging. Hope i can keep this blog gg after my exams.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
Random
Dreams really can come true, but they are most often the result of hard work, determination and persistence.
When the end of the journey seems impossible to reach, remember that all you need to do is take one more step. Stay focused on your goal and remember... each small step will bring you a little closer.
When the road becomes hard to travel and it feels as if you'll never reach the end... look deep inside your heart and you will find strength you never had.
I haven't blog fer a long long time. Probably i was lazy and i jus didn't feel like writing. I was mentally blocked, mid yrs coming and i jus didn't hv much mood to write. Furthermore, my addiction to soccer all of a sudden has become part of the reason. Haha. Guess Euro was not what i had expected.
Back to topic, I was cleaning up my drawers when i found all the cards she written to me. She did write a lot to me. Probably i was still too immature i guess, i barely took the time to read all the cards. The effort that she took to write, the heart and soul she has put in to do it. My heart sank as i continued reading. I have to admit i do miss her. I do regret not treasuring the times tgt with her. She did make many efforts to show how she cared for me. I wonder how it felt for her when we both decided to break up. The broke up did strengthen my mental and taught me to be independent and to grow stronger.
She did have her flaws, she was easily influenced and has no decisions bout anything at all. Makes me pretty mad at times. But her silent caring ways and her soft hearted and gentleness covered her flaws and this made me harder for me to let go. I keep claiming i hv let go and moved on, but i nv did. I was only lookin for a substitute and trying to find another her. Maybe she moved on, found someone better and hv forgotten bout me. Probably that is the reason, but deep down inside i hope it's not the reason, i believe it is another.
Life is unfair sometimes i guess. But tt does not stop me from making dreams come true. I got a lot of dreams and each one are very sweet. Like how hardworking the bees are harvesting honey, i will work hard and soon dreams will become reality. But some sweet dreams are too far to be reached, maybe i jus gotta do what the quote says. Look deep inside my heart and find the strenght i never knew i had...
When the end of the journey seems impossible to reach, remember that all you need to do is take one more step. Stay focused on your goal and remember... each small step will bring you a little closer.
When the road becomes hard to travel and it feels as if you'll never reach the end... look deep inside your heart and you will find strength you never had.
I haven't blog fer a long long time. Probably i was lazy and i jus didn't feel like writing. I was mentally blocked, mid yrs coming and i jus didn't hv much mood to write. Furthermore, my addiction to soccer all of a sudden has become part of the reason. Haha. Guess Euro was not what i had expected.
Back to topic, I was cleaning up my drawers when i found all the cards she written to me. She did write a lot to me. Probably i was still too immature i guess, i barely took the time to read all the cards. The effort that she took to write, the heart and soul she has put in to do it. My heart sank as i continued reading. I have to admit i do miss her. I do regret not treasuring the times tgt with her. She did make many efforts to show how she cared for me. I wonder how it felt for her when we both decided to break up. The broke up did strengthen my mental and taught me to be independent and to grow stronger.
She did have her flaws, she was easily influenced and has no decisions bout anything at all. Makes me pretty mad at times. But her silent caring ways and her soft hearted and gentleness covered her flaws and this made me harder for me to let go. I keep claiming i hv let go and moved on, but i nv did. I was only lookin for a substitute and trying to find another her. Maybe she moved on, found someone better and hv forgotten bout me. Probably that is the reason, but deep down inside i hope it's not the reason, i believe it is another.
Life is unfair sometimes i guess. But tt does not stop me from making dreams come true. I got a lot of dreams and each one are very sweet. Like how hardworking the bees are harvesting honey, i will work hard and soon dreams will become reality. But some sweet dreams are too far to be reached, maybe i jus gotta do what the quote says. Look deep inside my heart and find the strenght i never knew i had...
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Dreams
Dreams, i guess we are all just made of dreams. I hv dreams too, many actually. I come ot realise that dreams are just dreams. They are never part of reality, they will always be sweet, be something nice (otherwise it's nightmare, lol) and something that a part of u really desires it. Dreams will never come true.
Or that is wad i used to believe. Until i met Reu, Nigel, Cedric and many more that i cant name. I came to realise this. Dreams are sweet, everyone has them. But they can come true and the sweet things that appear in ur dreams will become ur reality, maybe not exactly the way u dream of it. They will come to 'life', when u hv taken actions to make these dreams of urs come true. I hv to agree, when u hv taken serious actions dreams do come true. Like how i wish to be part of SAFSA and Nteam, my tough and strainous training paid off. I was able to make my dreams come true. And many of them did it, which is y i am so motivated all of asudden. I realised that i hv dreams that i desire so much and for it to happen, i am gonna take actions and serious actions. I hv place my passion aside, but it does not end there. My dreams of going to uni has sparked off a motivated me. Study, eat, sleep and gym, these are gg to be the nxt phase of these yr till the A's are over.
Drifting off, i msg her. As expected, i knew she would ignore. I did take actions, to still be frenz. But since u made it clear, i knew it well. Terrance tell me, y would i go find the misery again. Tt's true, there are better ones out there. Maybe wad Bran say was true, thought it is a bit 'noob' i guess. 'It's hard to let go.' I know of some who jus cant let go, but i think i gotta. Maybe her thinkings are still as shaky as how it was like. I don noe. Wad i noe is that i hv matured. I hv moved on wif life and hving a gd future ahead. I hv dreams that i noe is gonna come true and when it does, i am glad i hv so many gd frenz ard tt helped me.
Or that is wad i used to believe. Until i met Reu, Nigel, Cedric and many more that i cant name. I came to realise this. Dreams are sweet, everyone has them. But they can come true and the sweet things that appear in ur dreams will become ur reality, maybe not exactly the way u dream of it. They will come to 'life', when u hv taken actions to make these dreams of urs come true. I hv to agree, when u hv taken serious actions dreams do come true. Like how i wish to be part of SAFSA and Nteam, my tough and strainous training paid off. I was able to make my dreams come true. And many of them did it, which is y i am so motivated all of asudden. I realised that i hv dreams that i desire so much and for it to happen, i am gonna take actions and serious actions. I hv place my passion aside, but it does not end there. My dreams of going to uni has sparked off a motivated me. Study, eat, sleep and gym, these are gg to be the nxt phase of these yr till the A's are over.
Drifting off, i msg her. As expected, i knew she would ignore. I did take actions, to still be frenz. But since u made it clear, i knew it well. Terrance tell me, y would i go find the misery again. Tt's true, there are better ones out there. Maybe wad Bran say was true, thought it is a bit 'noob' i guess. 'It's hard to let go.' I know of some who jus cant let go, but i think i gotta. Maybe her thinkings are still as shaky as how it was like. I don noe. Wad i noe is that i hv matured. I hv moved on wif life and hving a gd future ahead. I hv dreams that i noe is gonna come true and when it does, i am glad i hv so many gd frenz ard tt helped me.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Miss
I mus really stop listening to sad or emo songs. These songs jus probably reflect a part of ur emotions, the most weakest part. I gotta agree that Max Shanti's When i Get there has really become one of my most favourite song. The lyrics seem to be so true that i feel as thought i hv become part of the song.
Been trying hard to study after SPA, gotta find ways to focus once more. I really feel quite emotional these few days, over things i see and even in my dreams. Lol. Sometimes i really feel veri lousy. I really miss Reu and Chee sometimes. They used to be my motivators and now they have left, things hv become so different. Changes are gd, but not all of them are pleasant. I miss rowing, each time as i see the nteam boat passby. This thought always hit me, i should be in there. Fortunately, I am glad i met some gd pals in the gym, giving me gd advice and i know i mus focus and study hard.
It's only half a year left, like how Reu tried to make the World a better place through his music. I wanna study hard and really inspired to be as successful as him. Like what he always tell me," Dont be nua!"
Been trying hard to study after SPA, gotta find ways to focus once more. I really feel quite emotional these few days, over things i see and even in my dreams. Lol. Sometimes i really feel veri lousy. I really miss Reu and Chee sometimes. They used to be my motivators and now they have left, things hv become so different. Changes are gd, but not all of them are pleasant. I miss rowing, each time as i see the nteam boat passby. This thought always hit me, i should be in there. Fortunately, I am glad i met some gd pals in the gym, giving me gd advice and i know i mus focus and study hard.
It's only half a year left, like how Reu tried to make the World a better place through his music. I wanna study hard and really inspired to be as successful as him. Like what he always tell me," Dont be nua!"
When I Get There
When I Get There By Max Shanti
This may sound crazy
It probably is
but could you tell me where
true love is
Just point me in the right direction
i swear i wont make a sound
i'm looking for a neon sign
it's what i haven't found
they say it's gone south
where all the good things go
you'll see the flashing lights
and you know you are home
And there's no fancy name for it
No one knows who the Aphrodite is
It's only rain and rainbows
and the promise of bliss
But when i get there
It just is
I believe in love
but it's probably not for me
romance, the chase, the attractive engima
it's not me
I thought i was there before
but my heart got broken you see
I heard it's not easy
but you'll know you're home
And there's no fancy name for it
No one knows who the Aphrodite is
it's only rain and rainbows
and the promis of bliss
But when i get there
it just is
All these questions
I gotta ask before i go
If i'll never find it
will you let me know?
And there's no fancy name for it
No one knows who the Aphrodite is
It's only rain and rainbows
and the promise of bliss
But when i get there
It's just is
This may sound crazy
It probably is
but could you tell me where
true love is
Just point me in the right direction
i swear i wont make a sound
i'm looking for a neon sign
it's what i haven't found
they say it's gone south
where all the good things go
you'll see the flashing lights
and you know you are home
And there's no fancy name for it
No one knows who the Aphrodite is
It's only rain and rainbows
and the promise of bliss
But when i get there
It just is
I believe in love
but it's probably not for me
romance, the chase, the attractive engima
it's not me
I thought i was there before
but my heart got broken you see
I heard it's not easy
but you'll know you're home
And there's no fancy name for it
No one knows who the Aphrodite is
it's only rain and rainbows
and the promis of bliss
But when i get there
it just is
All these questions
I gotta ask before i go
If i'll never find it
will you let me know?
And there's no fancy name for it
No one knows who the Aphrodite is
It's only rain and rainbows
and the promise of bliss
But when i get there
It's just is
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