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The feeling of being broke is killing me. Being stuck at home everyday, knowing that there's sales everywhere and not being able to go out dere and shop like crazy. I feel like a hamster stuck in my poor little cage.

Argh! Cant take it anymore. Homework clearance rate is even slower. Better start to increase my work rate or new year's day will be dooms day fer me. Onli bout 4 days left. The term 'sch reopen' really makes me feel i am like a patient with an incurable disease waiting fer my doomsday to come.

I think i really need to party on new year's eve or i am gonna start to rot and be a 'good' boy when sch starts.

BleaHHHHHH

I am tired of gyming everyday. I am sick of looking at my homework pile. I am sad that sch is gonna reopen. I feel like BLEAH!!!!

I feel so lethargic training everyday. But the overload seems to show its results. So haapy that the fat percentage machine cant detect my fat, cos the person say my fat percentage is LOW. Haha.

Really hope i can maintain this. I really need to find a club soon.

I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row. I wan to row.

This is how desperate i am. Hope SAFSA is still hving NSF. Haha. I really wish nteam trg resumes soon. I wan to row.

Merry Christmas!

Had a christmas countdown last night with my NYDB buddies. Before that i went to do some last minute shopping. Sianx. Really spent a lot this year christmas.

Went down to Plaza Sing. Wanted to walk down to Orchard but realising tt everyone was late. We decided to stay in the area to do out countdown. Maybe the way we dressed, no one dared to spray the foam at us. How disappointing.

Went to Yvonne's house. Her ouse is so huge. We played DDR and chatted before i dozed off. Quite an eventful christmas eve. Haha. Wishing everyone a Merry Christmas and A Happy New Year!!

Bad Day

Argh! Hate organising gatherings, esp when everyone jus ignores ur ideas and use their own. Wad is the use of askin someone to organise when u dont even plan to use the idea in the first place.

Had a gathering at glasshouse Fish & Co. today. WTF. Planned to hv Bbq at Yi Yang's place in the beginning. Changed to a Turkish Restaurant at Arab Street and in the end, they decided to go to their desired place.

I really feel disheartened and disappointed when these things happen. It is gonna be the last time fer me to organise any outing wif the guys.

1 more wk b4 sch reopens. Gotta arrange an outing wif the SAFSA guys soon, b4 everyone gets busy. Let's hope Christmas outing would be a better one.

Presents

It's that time of the year again. Christmas session is here. And the is SALES everywhere. Went shopping that day and i noticed almost every store is hving sales.

Got my sis a pair of NUM trackers, if that is wad they called. Going broke jus tryin to think of all the presents to get fer everybody. Haix. Wonder wad presents will i receive this year. Hope i am getting wad i wan fer X'mas this year. Haha. At least gather some of my Chinese New Year's clothings wishlist. Heh.

Wrist is feeling bit weird these few days. Mus be frm the heavy and long lifting sessions. And it is really affecting me. Need it to recover soon. Gotta pumped up b4 sch reopens. I need to find a motivation soon. The feeling of lethargic is coming back. 'Mus not be NUA!!!'. Need to find a club soon and hope nteam is still gonna resume trg soon. In the meantime, I better do my homework. Need to start being consistent in my work.

AHHHH!!!

I hate liars. I hate ppl giving me empty promises. I always knew it's time to move on. But there will always be this small tiny part that always say no. I guess there is no point in hiding frm the veri beginning. Dexter was right. I should hv believed him and not hv so much hope. Yup. It's time to move on.

It's really sad when u find out things urself. Today i really did. I felt pissed and disappointed. Really felt like slamming the chair right into the PC. But hu cares. At least the truth is out. Gotta control myself frm screaming out tt 'B' word.

Had a great work out today. Swimming and gyming. Been veri productive these few days. Argh! But the muscles ache and the wrist pain still aren't going away. Gotta taper down soon when sch reopens. Jus abt 1 and half wks left. Gotta Push!

Turkey

Oh man! I wan a big fat turkey fer Christmas. So wan one. But it is too freakin ex.

Christmas is coming. So many things to buy. Gotta save money. Save money. Haix.

Blessings

A totally mixed emotions these few days. The past 2 days has been a veri blessed day. A fresh new start to a whole new wonderful journey.

Went down fer Juniors trg today. I believe things r changing and i do not really like the sight of it. Bad feeling. An instinct i guess. It's time to back out i guess. Should i continue to pursue my passion. I really don noe. I am veri confused and it's getting me moody.

Been gyming a lot b4 sch reopens. Gotta really make the decisions b4 sch starts. HOMEWORK! I gotta start soon. Better stop slacking i guess. Time to WAKE UP U NUA ****!!!

My last task b4 sch reopens is to visit u guys and maybe hv a chat wif all of u. I really miss u all. COntinue guiding me ya?[ I hope u all r reading it frm up dere] And to the SAFSA seniors tt rowed wif me, i noe all of u r gonna ORD. Take care and enjoy ur Uni life, don 4get the young one here. Hope we could all meet up soon. I noe this sounds wrong, but i kinda miss u guys.

$7.11

Rushed down to class chatlet today. After promising everyone that i would be down. It's been so long since i last saw my class.

It's really great to meet up with the class after so long. When i reached it was already evening and everyone was starting to prepare fer BBQ.

Helped atart the fire and didn't really cook much. The rest of the class was veri enthu in cooking fer all of us. Poor Kelly had stomach cramps and look real bad.

But not many stayed over which was veri disappointing. Onli 4 guys stayed over. Lol. Luckily we mamage to persuade Charis and Kelly to stayed over. So everything wasn't that bad.

We played Black Jack and i won $5. Guess it was their blessing. Then most of the guys went down fer 2nd round of BBQ. It was already near 2 AM when they came back.

I was really too shagged to eat wif them. Went to sleep b4 them. It was really great to meet up with the class. Even got a pretty weird class tee. Schools gonna start soon, guess we r all gonna meet up veri often soon.

The Dream

I slept really late last nite and had a memories of the past few months jus flash back. It's been more than a week since i walked the last jorney wif them.

The dream i had last nite showed me how much i really missed both of them. Reu and Chee, even thought i don noe u fer veri long. But in the short period of time tgt as teammates and buddies. I hv bonded deeply with the both of u.

I could still remember the times we go Mambo and the times we train tgt in the gym and rowing. Memories of times spent tgt jus keep flashing back...

To Reu,

thought i nv said these to u. But u r always like a big brother lookin after me. I could remember telling u how i was impressed and how u r a motivation to me when i first raced with SAFSA during the Singapore Dragonboat Festival. Meeting SAFSA in the finals and wishing i could be part of a strong team has always been my dreams. Frequently seeing u in gym and doing all the heavy weights sort of pushed me to train harder and hoping my team in my NYDB days, could grow strong and powerful jus like the SAFSA team under u. After stepping down frm NYDB, u brought me to SAFSA dragonboat where a whole new journey began for me. It was also the point where u took care of me and share ur experiences wif me. A BIG BROTHER, yes u r, U will always be in my heart NINJA!

I cant take candid pics of u anymore. Still remember u calling me 'Asshole' and 'Noob' fer doing so.

To Chee Wei Zheng,

I remember walking into first SAFSA training and i first saw u. U seem cold and not friendly. I was kinda scared and quiet too in the beginning. But after a few trainings and Reu introductions, things soon change. Attachment and preparation fer my first major race Regatta, makes us bond stronger. Mambo nites fer Chian farewell and many more and the singlet u got fer us frm Thailand will always stay in my memories. I still remember how u always battle with Allen and how he always make fun of u. But u always pushed hard fer trgs and at the same time motivating us to push harder. I will nv forget how u ask me to go for whatever i wan, like how u brought me into Nteam and always reminding me to study hard. U r like more than jus a close fren, u r like a buddy, a motivator and a guardian. A born leader and that is how i will always remember you.

Ur cheerful smile and ur 'WTH' i will nv forget.

I promised i will study hard and not disappoint both of u. I will train hard and not be nua like wad u said, Reu. I also learnt to treasure all those around me, esp my parents and close frenz. Like what everyone says, i will stay strong. Both of u will always be in our hearts and i now know dere r two of u lookin after not just me, but all of us. Rest in peace.

Reu and Chee, u will always be remembered.

In Life, every ending is jus a new Beginning...

Rest in peace...

Milkshake

Hvn't went clubbing fer veri long. Jus to amend wad i written on my last post. Wasn't blaming the councilors. They were nice to help us negotiate. And i thank them fer that. Was unhappy with the club and their rules. They were not flexible enough. Yeah.

Clubbing jus bring back memories. The days at Beat HomeClub and Mambo Nitez jus really makes me think about them. It's difficult to move on and forget all the gd times we spent tgt as a team. At least when i look back now or if i ever go clubbing again i would always remember the good times we all hv as a team.

Went MOS last nite with Zhong Lin, Jia Bing, Eric, Dexter, Ikhthia, Qing Yi, Bao Qi, Cheryl and Kai Ling. Veri crowded, guess ZoukOut didn't affect them much. Since the veri bad experience at MOS, didn't think it would make much gd experience. Indeed, I didn't really enjoy myself. Probably because wasn't really in the mood. Should hv gone to HomeClub instead. Guess Home and Zouk will always be my fav.

Everything seems fine till the last part. I would like to apologise if anything bad has happened or any cock ups. Cos i was bit high and tired, futhermore wasn't in much of a mood too. But hope all of u really enjoy urselves. It was a rare chance to be clubbing wif all of u. Yupz. =)

Took a cab back wif Dex. It was after a long time b4 i got to chat wif him. I really missed a lot of ppl, and hope to meet up wif everyone. Esp my class 0711 peeps and many more. Gotta find time and meet up wif them soon b4 trg resumes and b4 sch starts.

I believe i hv to make time out and spend it more wif my family. Hvn't been spending enuff tme wif them. Let's hope the choice i am gonna make is a correct one, i dont wan to be hurt badly again. A lot of events has happened this year. But i believe that they will always be by my side and blessing me.

Prom

Well, as expected and hardly a surprise. NYJC prom was not as wonderful as expected. The fun really came when u meet up wif old frenz and seeing all the formal dress ups. Guess this will last as a memory.

What happened after prom was jus stupid. Couldn't decide wad to do or where to go. Lol. Areana was bullshit. Cant believe they were so ineffiecient. They tried to uphold a gd image. Still doesn't noe hu they r messing wif. I guess tt the reason y we nv did went dere.

Well, a msg from Chian:
Dear friends of Wei Cheng,
My name is Kai Hong, a close friend and dragonboat team-mate of the late Wei Cheng. I am sure by now, you have heard of the tragic accident in Cambodia 3 weeks ago.
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(http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/314549/1/.html)I am honored to have had the opportunity to row with Wei Cheng in both SAFSA as well as the National Team. He was a dedicated paddler who worked hard to reach his goals. This eventually earned him a place in the National squad, despite his lack of prior experience in the sport.While participating actively in dragonboat, Wei Cheng dedicated much of his remaining time to giving tuition in order to contribute to the family's income. From a tender age, Wei Cheng and his brother, Wei You, have been raised single handedly by their mother, who is currently sourcing for a job with the help of relatives. Wei You recently re-took his 'O' Levels and is hoping to enter a local Polytechnic with his grades. He will be working part-time to bear some of the family's financial burden, which his brother had so painstakingly bourne these few years.I understand that most of you have probably attended the recent wake and have already given "white money" to the family. However, with the "season of giving" just around the corner, I'm trying to arrange for a second round of donations for the family, hoping to offer what aid we can to help mother and son tide over this extremely difficult time. No obligations here. If you feel that you have given as much help as you could, it is ok.After some discussions with Wei Cheng's cousin, we have jointly decided that cheques would be the most efficient method of facilitating these donations. Even if you are unable to write a cheque, I hope you can approach your parents and see if they would like to extend their help in this. My team-mates and I are organising this to provide an avenue for those who wish to extend their aid to the Chee family, but do not know where and how.You will have my assurance that all donations will be documented, and that the FULL proceeds will be handed to Mdm Chee. We are doing this for we believe that Wei Cheng, being the filial son that he was, would not want his brother and mother to have to bear the weight of his departure.For those who would want to donate a substantial amount to the family, please either reply to this message,contact me at "kee_heng@hotmail.com" or 96461072. Details on how to donate will be diclosed to you privately. I hope to be able to collect all donations during the 3rd week of this month, which is 17th to 22nd December 2007.I thank you for reading this, and hope we can all do our part to help the family.
Yours Sincerely,Chian Kai Hong

Hope all those hu read this would help. Really miss u guys.

Don keep, mus share

Went fer cox job today. Rush down frm sch gym wif Derek to realise we were veri early. I met Kelward at old SDBA.

It hurts really bad when ur close frenz leave u. It hurts too to see ur frenz sufferin in silence and not willing to say it out. I know he is hurt and he is in pain. But seeing it and not being able to do anything makes me feel worse.

Yes, i agree that it still hurts somethimes. Memories jus flows back, but we jus gotta move on. Time does not wait and reality sinks in too fast. I jus wan him and everyone to know that ur families and frenz r always dere fer u. Don keep all the pain to urselves, cos ppl around u will be hurt too.

I kinda agree wif Kai Hong and think that there are now 5 gurdian angels lookin after us. They will always live in our hearts and be by our sides forever and ever. After watching 'Enchanted' tonite, i agree that in every story no matter the twists, there will always be a happy ending.

I hope this quote can help calm those still hurt and sad.
'Although it's difficult today to see beyond the sorrow, May looking back in memory help comfort you tomorrow.'

Moving On

Walking into Bishan Gym is nv gonna be the same. It was where i first met him. It was we trained tgt. The place seemed to be filled with memories. I remembered how i was afraid of him in the gym. I did not know much about dragonboat. A noob then as he call. And that was how we became frenz.

He used to be doin heavy weights and showing off his pull ups at the pull up bar. It was onli in June when he intro me to SAFSA dragonboat, which made us closer. It was also how i met Wei Zheng. Bishan gym, swimming complex and the Park. PLaces we used to train tgt, enjoy ourselves and bonded tgt.

Stepping into the gym today, staring at the Lats machine, the pullup bar and the Smith machine brought sadness to me. I know i mus be strong, but those were the machines Reu always used and how he trained me with in the beginning and how i had spot him while he bench. The bench press machine reminded me of Chee, how he had pushed himself b4 gg to Bangkok. Training today after a long wk, i know i mus push hard and not be a noob like how Reu always call me and how Chee always reminded us to train hard and how he was always a role model.

I know now i mus start to change, move away frm my bad habits and study hard and train hard. The advices of Chee and Reu will always stay rooted in my heart. And both of u will always live in my heart.

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It was really painful at the last moments. It was undescribable pain. Pain in the heart, pain everywhere. Walking the last journey with them was all i could do as a friend. All of u will always live in my heart. I will never forget all of u. In life, every ending has a new beginning. May u all rest in peace.

With love, YiHe